Trauma

[Intro]
I feel like I’m the last trapper left
Sawfside

[Chorus]
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment

[Verse 1]
Had me a year after my brother
You were supposed to get an abortion
I’m just saying there’ll never be a day you regret it
My nigga gone, can’t raise his
Treat my mama like my daughter yeah
My niece my daughter, ng’saphila ain’t a thing azoyiswela yena
Indlel’ enzima ing’tandile
Ihlez’ iz’khethela mina, what can I say?
Ngi’indoda umehluko ukuthi bade, I ain’t never been scared to die
You can tell by my eyes
You can tell even by the way I smile
Ya kukhon’ inhlungu lana ez’sithele

[Chorus]
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment

[Verse 2]
I ran out of money, ran out of some friends too
Deserted the apartment, bese ngayikhomba eSoweto
And I did what I said I would if I ever go broke
I get in my feelings when rappers say they sold dope (R.I.P Citi nigga)
I ran into money, ran into some issues
This money drew a wedge between mina nabantu
I love more than I love myself, that’s where I went so wrong
Forgive me and’soze nd’ngazi nakekeli k’qala

Mangakwata mina ang’satshelwa
Makungab’ as’zwani k’cono sihlukane
Estraateni ngahleka
Ngalahlekelwa inhliziyoyam’
Voices in my head say ngik’fak’ inhlamvu ekhanda
Bafun’ uphumelele makungab’ bahamba nawe
Ng’kengalahleka, ngalahlekelwa ukuz’thanda ng’ngakhon’ nok’thandaza

[Chorus]
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment
I lost umalum’ wam’ last year, couldn’t even cry, I wonder why
My heart so cold that you can see the pain even in my smile
I know so many people who’ll never see they daughter grow up
I know some more who died before they baby mama gave birth
Ma’ ndiyabulela, you should’ve aborted me
Ndazalwa uxakekile, ngapha unemployment