Transmission

This is my transmission
Are you there?
Can you hear me calling you?
If you care to listen
Know that this is all that’s left
For me to do

I don’t need your blessings
I don’t need you to understand
I just want you to accept this
But I’ll survive if that’s something
That I can’t have

I’m sending out a message
I have to go, I know not where
I have to do this on my own
And you can join me if you dare
But I’m not waiting for you

This is my admission
Of the sins that I’ve committed
And will commit again
Without remorse, inhibition, or fear
I don’t want your forgiveness
Only your ear

I’m tired of running in circles
Wishing that God
Would get me right next time
I’m sick of searching for purpose
I’ve realized that I don’t matter
I never mattered; that’s why

No, I’m not waiting for you
I’m not waiting for you