Total Disaster

[Intro]
C-Lance

[Verse 1: Cryptic Wisdom]
I went from an outcast in the back fillin' up with doubt fast
To a well-balanced individual to outlast
Anything comin' my way, I don't avoid it, I want it today
Give me whatever you want I'ma take it and burn it like
"Oh they don't want to be saved"
I ain't a fool like my dad but it ain't cool to stay mad
These dudes view me, YouTube me, glued to my past
And they like "You ain't been livin' the same, we like you better when full of the pain"
I told 'em I had to let it go, let it be for me
Because I was afraid of my brain
Straight up it felt like that, when I fell like that
And I'm pissy but I belt you but the belt strikes back
And it's been taller for me but I don't wanna leave
I got plenty more I gotta do
And I been headed forward in the booth
I am an animal, I'm on the loose
You are the reason I am alive
You better believe that I'm gonna strive
Until I'm deceased and I'm gonna rot
Long as I'm breathin', stick to the plot
Because the alternative ain't lookin' good
It's got me doin' what I should
Look at me grow, look at me prosper
Look at 'em lookin' at me gettin' shook (Yuh)

[Chorus: Cryptic Wisdom]
They told me I would be nothin', I love it
It's one of the reasons I'm here
I'm not the type that would like it
If I ended up like I'm one of my peers
To be a total disaster
I'm not a total disaster

[Verse 2: Rittz]
They said I would never amount to shit
Back when I was soundin' out the alphabet
Learnin' how to count, they count me out
Doubt would cloud my head
My teachers called me out
The kids clownin' me 'bout how I F'd the test we took
Took my history book, kicked me out the class
So now my desk is in the hall, all the students goin' to lunch
Would laugh at me, gettin' hassled by the staff and faculty
I should be glad to leave it's after 3 but home ain't any better
Catch a beatin' but I'm still alive like Eddie Vedder
Guess they're right that I might not amount to zilch
Told me I ain't shit then drove it in my skull with power drills
Crying over sour milk, but gallons spilt
Went from drivin' Power Wheels to county jail
Feel like I carry around a thousand pounds of guilt
My knees are beginnin' to weaken
As an adult, you would think I would've learned
Takin' the feelin's I had as a teen
Ended up makin' a positive turn
Livin' the dream, shit is the opposite
Got it and lost every dollar I earn
Then I hit bottom my father pretended
He thought it would cause a concern
Instead they said

[Chorus: Cryptic Wisdom]
They told me I would be nothin', I love it
It's one of the reasons I'm here
I'm not the type that would like it
If I ended up like I'm one of my peers
To be a total disaster
I'm not a total disaster

[Verse 3: Novatore]
I'm a disaster but the rap I speak's a masterpiece
Black metal blasting Xasthur with a strap in each
Never contested, brand is building like I'm Master P
I told Lance I'll spaz on anything he pass to me
Now cats are mad at me because I'm shreddin' beats to bits
But each fist will knock the fuckin' teeth out of a piece of shit
At least I get props from veterans in hip-hop
They not trippin' less they trippin' off how fuckin' beast I get
I've got a lot of hate but gotta say I've ceased to let
That affect me, got respect that many reach to get
I spend a G at least on beats when I'm releasin' heat
Six months, you sittin' on the beat, ain't even leased it yet
Shit I haven't even reached my peak
The me you've met is man and the plan is to unleash the freak
Pagans, pawns, pedophiles, pedestrians, police
I'll sink my teeth in any creature if I need to feast