Too many steps

Smithing up
My pick me up
Spliffed it up
I skipped the sippy cup
You miss me huh?
Well? I miss you kinda
Like getting behind her
Was like a line to me
And I had a lot of it
I’d trade my fucking life
For a Klonopin
Or fucking you on the ottoman again
I’m odd you knew this when we met
Back when we were only friends
Back when I ate the hulks like pez
Backbones can ache
The smoke will thin though
Strength can show
With foes
Just for your info
Don’t get froze when the wind blow
Slow it goes but I will grow
Can’t keep going with your chin low
Hands get cold and my shit gets old
It ain’t never sold
Like rusty rims
And you can list my lust
But can we fuck again?
I miss you so damn much
And know we left it rough
But in the cuffs
I trusted you still
Ripping up
My shoes in my cell
Picked up
First thing when I woke up
I ain’t even toke up
Moved over the curtains
Saw two sherrifs lurking
I’m embarrassed
Emergency workers
Required
You hurt me
I hurt you times five
I’m a liar
You a liar
Getting higher
I wish I was hugging
You tighter
This lighter
Can pause it
But not forever
So I’m writing
And writing
And writing
And writing
I’m
Spending these nights
Doubting myself
Doubting my worth
And wanting to down
Absurd amounts
Of those drugs
But doing nothing
Just smoking
No bluffing
Not joking
Believe it or not
I’mma always have love
You deceived me too
When you was out fucking him
I was home sleeping without a clue
When you was out fucking him
I was at home needing you
When you was out fucking him
I guess I neglected you
I tried to do the best I could do
Until you said I give up on you
P-tree

Too many steps to take in this life
To waste them on me
When something ain’t right
I always wanted it to work out
You always wanted us to shine
Why
Do so many lights
Get
Get lost in these nights
Tossed to the side
Blocked by these signs
That don’t give us any direction
Maybe it’s the rest of our lives
So I can live with that I guess
I just pray you live the best
You can live
Now you can live
We need to work out