Too Long

I've been holding on for way too long
You never want to tell me what is wrong
Telling you I'm sorry though this song
I never really felt like I belong

Baby I am worthless
I'm nothing to cry for
Can you tell me something besides "there's the door"
I swear I tried my best
Always ended on the floor
Can you please end the pain
I don't really want no more

Someone tie me up and light me on fire
Gasoline in my lungs
Now I need a lighter
I'm about to tie a noose made of barbed wire
Gonna end everything
Don't call me a liar

Got that fucking mental pain hurting up my heart
Everything you do really just tears me apart
I could find a button that grants a fresh start
But everybody spills my blood and fucking calls it art

I'm just tryna to speak about what is on my mind
All my friends left me
I'm by myself behind
Got this fucking stress but nothing helps me unwind
And everytime I think of you my mood starts to decline

There's no rhyme or reason
We're only here to die
I don't have a single thought of not ending my life
Someone help me out this hole
I don't wanna die
Someone help me fight this cold
I don't wanna cry

I'm stuck up in my room bleeding emotion in my bed
There's stains on my walls
The blood falling from my head
Painting everything I touch in a shade of red
I am feeling everything
Don't need no fucking meds

Nobody can help me
I cannot be saved
It makes me go crazy when they say to behave
I can feel the raw emotion picking at my brain
This is that real shit
Not no vaporwave

Screaming till my vocals cords bleed and shatter
Nobody really cares so it doesn't even matter
Biting down and break my teeth
I don't have an answer
Grab the gun and pull the trigger
Everything is scattered

I know that my music sucks
My mixing ain't that good
Listen to the lyrics
I really hope they're understood
I poured everything that I had into this track
Now I think it's time that I finally take a nap