Too Creative

So I was recently told I was too creative
That I wasn’t Christ centered enough
And the peeps we trying to reach wouldn’t understand your speech
I told them it’s cool
It’s not an issue
I ain’t so judgmental
Thanks for your advice
I’m just not afraid of heights
Like Christ wasn’t afraid to mix spit with mud as if he couldn’t fix vision with one word
I’m sorry

I get my creativity from my Father
Have you ever been to the aquarium
Google the coral reef for pete’s sake
Thanks for your advice
I’ve just lost my fear
Like I’m not afraid of a blank canvas
I ain’t afraid to be the canvas
I’ve been marred in the potter’s hand and God don’t use erasers
Off on purpose

But what keeps you up at night?
Are you afraid of budget meetings or board of directors
Thanks for your advice
I have just lost my fear
of gravity
Since His majesty came and grabbed me
I have often wondered
How loud does an alarm clock need to be to wake a dead man
maybe you are right
I am too creative

Say I’m afraid of being wrong
but if I am, tell me
I ain’t afraid of correction
Humbly embrace lessons
Just like you shouldn’t be afraid of city permits
and submit to the process
Cause there is not one city permit that can stop what Elohim permits

I’m so comfortable with sovereignty
so done wasting words
so tired of lying to my Father in the mirror
See, that is where I get my courage from
My spine ain’t naturally stainless steel
And you can have freely what I have learned from failing miserably
And I guess this statement shook me
Cause honestly? I’m terrified
Terrified of wasting time
But you can bet your good graces
I aint afraid of their faces
Hearts of men wax cold
out your mind soul
It’s the guts to say no then nosedive
Follow commandments that don’t make sense
See, God says learn to walk worthy
and if you understood the cross you would see that command was such a paradox
I think I understand now
Between heresies and pharisees
Between schemes to get rich and work to attain wealth
This is why I graciously smile
Because truthfully, they are scared
Scared like most of us are
That you down to waste your weekends
and spend a couple hundred bucks to do the same thing you been doing
You scared like I am
That your ideas aren’t original
That you are just like your parents
That you are ok with mediocre
your product is mediocre
And the best you ever been and ever will be is so so
Homie, this aint a movie
You might go bankrupt and fail like the rest of us
You scared like I am
Scared that you are irrelevant
Like I understand Dax now
Is this really happening?
Am I still rapping?
Still doing the same thing I was doing when I was 15
And you scared cause you only give cause its a tax write off
or to Africa to prove you ain’t racist
When is the last time you gave a gardener a cup of water
I don’t even know our groundskeepers name and that vato wears a name tag
You scared
That your chair is way too comfortable
And the cost of your laptop could have fed Angola
And it really don’t bother you
You scared
Like I am

See I was recently told I was too creative
That shook me to the core
Cause I have no excuse for fear
I should be roller skating around Saturn
Looking down at satellites
If you muster up the bravery, you'll get this one day, that we fooled you
This ain't a conference
This is a runway
Why ain't you flying?