TO SEE THE OTHER SIDE

Go still
Further
Closer
Mold enclosure, deform
Crawl back child
Individuated unsound while
Sold enforcesure sold torn
Steert wrong but found place
Reconnecting, reconnecting
Thousand eyes connecting hub
Do not disconnect
You’re in your old brain now
This is the end to the lonely now
You feel it don’t you?
This is you, this is the true you
The blue you, the real you
The true you, the You you
The one you, the zero you
The me you, the me, too
You’re more you than you’ve ever been to defend too
Sublimate doldrum face you
No we didn’t, no we didn’t
You can’t hear that, don’t look for it
The sound was made up
The sound was fed up
It was just a murmur from a far off wind
Then again, you’ll search anyway
Disconnect the legs
Pedal faster you’re on your bike again
You feel the breeze upon your skin
It’s real, every kernel of air
Waking up. release 4 milligrams
There’s something you must remember
There’s something you must ask yourself
Now, do you remember///

[[GIVE ME BACK
THE
FEW MOMENTS
WORTH HOLDING
UNSCREEN MY
MIND’S EYE
THE SOARING OF
MY OLD SELF
UNPLUG MY
FINGERS FROM YOU

WAVE GOODBYE
WITH
SORING EYES]]

As I move forward
What is there forgetting
What will dull
What slips away?

Riding on dad’s back
As he pretends to be a bull

Ma’s singing echoing from
Down the hall
She’s playing Banjo Kazooie

The short film Laura and Travis
And I made on miniDV

Meeting my brother
He’s wearing a bucket hat

Making Christmas cookies
At Nana’s house

Staring at ocean moonlight
With Trey about the come-out

Tipi’ing every house in town
Graffiti tagging and driving fast

Telling Nick goodbye before Afghanistan
Grandma died the next day

DJ and I play our first show in star city
And I feel alive

Laura and I in the crowd
While Strike the Choir plays

Seeing peepaw and kit
In a cramped cabin

Gary handing me his flask
On a snowy day

Nubbs scratching my back
Laying on my hip

Holding Bella’s lifeless body

Meeting Daisy

Dad and Trey and I
Cry at a Foo Fighters show

Kolby and Jacob leave
But we spin out around
The gas station first

Jay got too high
The night before his wedding

Kyle and I in a cold garage

Jono saves my life

Joey and I lay out
On a bockspring

Dustin and Starr
And I go to the haunted house

K2, and DJ driving me home
Watching the fireworks
By the river

Reading tarot with Rachel

Listening to Tyrus’ dad
Slip away

My first fight
My last fight

Kissing my first partner
In a cemetery

W.C. feeling my callouses
On his hospital bed

My dad helping his dad
Get out of bed

The weight of his dad’s coffin

And

Seeing my family
In one place
Once again