TO DIE IN OCTOBER

[Part I]

[Intro]
October

[Verse 1]
The thoughts are floodin' in, I'm lookin' in my skin
I have no simple weakness, but I can't ever win
What will I ever be? The chances are too thin
Such a mental sickness, my birth was such a sin
The thoughts inside that forest linger in my skull and mind
If I had a gun, I'd shoot the bullet between both my eyes
The police would see my body, never seen a sight so gory
Before I left that park, I should've killed myself with holy glory

[Verse 2]
Oh, Father, cleanse my sickness, let me clean and spill it out
The knife will do the work while one hand covers up my mouth
I would never drop a tear, I have no room for your lies
I have a weight upon my shoulders, they'll fade when I die
The thoughts run every day, my mind is only death
Desensitized, the weapon lies inside my dirty chest
I'll only buy one bullet, 'cause I don't need the rest
Ring me up, I'll fill my cup until I have no breath

[Bridge]
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)
(Ahh, ahh)

[Part II]

[Verse 3]
Grew up scared of the dark, when did this really start?
Made amends with myself
My body's missin' some parts, and I'm makin' more scars
The thought of death never did help
I used to fear my psyche, and now I use it to cope
I stopped chasing the light, I learned to tie tight ropes

[Outro]
There's always an easy way out, but will I ever really take it?
When I think of my sickness, I ask God why He made it
There's always an easy way out, but will I ever really take it?
When I think of my sickness, I ask God why He made it