Tired

Nigga I'm tired
I wanna start me a riot
I hold emotions inside
Rock bottom surviving
Thinking is there a God
Huh
I said nigga I'm tired
Systemic deprived
Don't know my purpose in life
I gotta fake me a smile
I live but I ain't alive

I'm so sick of tired of being sick and tired
Sometimes I overthink while I sit in silence
It's always
"You don't make enough"
"You need better credit"
"You need more experience"
Meanwhile down and out I'm tryna sprout blessings
Feeling hectic, finished, shreddеd, living deaded
Pleasе send me a medic
And everyone I know floats on a thin line of depression
Collection of broken hearts and loss of connection
Just another lonely soul hoping for acceptance
Adding lessons as a adolescent
Stressing
I try to live my life peaceful yall are so deceitful
Naïve of me to think you'd treat me equal
Just seeing police knowing that they see me evil
Reasons I get so nervous like that could be me too
I'm not even lethal
Hurting for my people

Nigga I'm tired
I wanna start me a riot
I hold emotions inside
Rock bottom surviving
Thinking is there a God
Huh
I said nigga I'm tired
Systemic deprived
Don't know my purpose in life
I gotta fake me a smile
I live but I ain't alive

When talking to ya friends and fam the feels like "no one gets it"
When their trap mindset makes you compress expressions
Like I got a lesser chance in
Someone who understands this message
Than an insecure non-confident person
Standing naked
Every time I get a text I hope it's her reply
Phone so dry that's just somebody going live
But I'm used to it anyway on my lonely vibes
Got me always overthinking strolling on my thoughts
Getting way too comfortable with never having shit
Mismanagement, high risking damages
Vandalism, grand theft, and pandering
Another young man's funeral happens regularly
I just wanna make music
And make anime doing
All the things I love doing
Relaxing and cooling
I don't wanna have to deal with no drama or nuisance
Taking naps the only time I feel stress less so soothing

Nigga I'm tired
I wanna start me a riot
I hold emotions inside
Rock bottom surviving
Thinking is there a God
Huh
I said nigga I'm tired
Systemic deprived
Don't know my purpose in life
I gotta fake me a smile
I live but I ain't alive