Tinnitus

A couple rings, brief message, then the tone
“Hello it’s me, it’s been so long, I’ll be home
Just one night next week we should meet up grab some drinks and maybe food
I would love to see you”
An hour late, I should have known, it’s so you
To make me wait, to cause scene, when you walk in the room
Watch the heads all turn in silence as the conversations cease
You’d smile, then sit by me
Another drink I stir, restless thoughts drift away
To car windows, defrosters, secluded space
And the light on the edge of the sky as it creeps over mountains and plains
The coming of dawn and the time that remains
The loudest of songs you should never let fade
But the silence you left is so deafening
My ears won’t stop ringing
We owned the unrestraint
Of summer’s sudden rain
Foolish minds will make their plans
But restless hearts don’t stand a chance
I loved you once but I just couldn’t stay
The wrong end lit of cigars unclipped
We failed on the beach that night to smoke
Then threw away, blushed laughing, naively hope
That the light on the edge of the sky wouldn’t spread over mountains and plains
The coming of dawn how it kills what remains
The loudest of songs you should never let fade
The silence you left is so deafening
My ears won’t stop ringing
And not follow the roads out to their unpaved ends
Just to find you asleep in my bed
I left to chase the distant horizon
I chose to regret you instead
Still alone at the bar waiting for you to show
Keep watching the door but I already know
Pay my tab find the floor with stumbling feet
Make my way through the crowd to the quiet street
My ears won’t stop ringing
I loved you once but I had to leave
It’s what I tell myself at night
Before I fall asleep with cold sheets by my side