Times Preserved (Unreleased)

[Chorus]
Cause I don't even recognize myself
I know that I put people through hell
We can't go back to what we were
I don't even recognize myself

[Verse]
Checking my reflection as I see the image flickering
Ion know emotion, this is not to seem indifferent
Dreams be on the scenes, the things I see be the vividest
Marijuana, hittin' it
Wrists on slit again
The shit you fantasize and write about, I'm really living it
Couldn't see my purpose for a while, wish it was writ in braille
You can tell I been through hell
You see the ash, it tend to trail
In the trees, the essence that you breathe, the wind that's in the sails
SBP is me, I'm everything I said I'm [?] be frail
Nurses have you weak down to your knees and make you lean on rails
This line for my father, you ain't ask but just know we been well
And you can't really trust nobody these days, secret sale
Three-ish hurtin, bleedin, mommas boyfriend beat me, leaving welts
They always felt the need to speak on me, until they see themselves
That's what make us different, I go through shit you can't even tell
I arrive just to kill your pride cause you need this L
My girl say she hate me, anger flash and then I say it back
My world start to tilt, feel like I'm hanging, vision fade to black
Life is what you make it, granted how you take it makes the fact
I'd rather be cooking food for my kids than tryna make a batch
Hit a line and write a verse
You won't see me, but I'm in the leaves tryna hide the hurt
Keep on going straight like I can't find reverse
And I ain't never scared to walk through fire, kinda like the burn
And I ain't scared to die, and if I do means that my time's been served
Yeah my mind's absurd

[Chorus]
Cause I don't even recognize myself
I know that I put people through hell
We can't go back to what we were
I don't even recognize myself