TIDAL WAVES

Verse 1:
I think you're beautiful, why do you hide?
Knew it was due for our worlds to collide
I live in a world where nobody respects me
And lately I barely been feeling alive
My grandfather just left us
I was at his bedside when he died
Held my grandmother through the funeral
And I ain't even have a tear in my eye
Swear in the past few months
I been doing this shit I can't describe
I have been looking for something to cure me
But that type of medicine they don't prescribe
Why is October the darkest?
I thought it would be over fast, closing my eyes and it's colorful
Guess I'm just gullible
Thinking that love would heal me, I ain't comfortable when vulnerable
I don't even strip myself naked, this self-hatred
It's 12 a.m. and I wish somebody with some empathy
Would hit my phone instead of people wishing death on me...
I be excellent at that fake shit
That smiling all in your face shit
My soul feeling this hatred
Our own devils work late shifts, I can't take this

CHORUS:
Could you be my medicine?
Can't even tell you why
It feel like hell again
When the day turns into night
Hold my aggression in
Guess ima let it slide
Gotta count my blessings and
Thank God that I'm alive
I drown, tears around me they form into tidal waves
I drown, let me know if you ever decide to stay around
Tears around me they form into tidal waves
I drown, let me know if you ever decide to stay around

VERSE 2:
Had friends that were dealing, had friends that were addicts
I gotta show all these kids that they matter
I'm in the world that turned me to a savage
If I say I love you just know I could back it
And know I could back it
Lotta people wanna fight with me, I think they want a reaction
I just been doing this shit that's so bad for me
Can't even look at myself when it's happening, I be so numb
But I be right here to stay
Every time I told somebody this shit they just got scared away
But I be so numb
But I be right here to stay
Every time I told somebody this shit they just got scared away
But I be so numb

CHORUS:
Could you be my medicine?
Can't even tell you why
It feel like hell again
When the day turns into night
Hold my aggression in
Guess ima let it slide
Gotta count my blessings and
Thank God that I'm alive
I drown, tears around me they form into tidal waves
I drown, let me know if you ever decide to stay around
Tears around me they form into tidal waves
I drown, let me know if you ever decide to stay around