Thoughts still dark

Heaven or hell - as long as there's no pain
I'm in the right place
I've been a fuck up since fifteen, yeah
What a fucking disgrace
I have these visions they clear as fuck
I was dead in the dark by a bloody stump
And my brodies came through with that stomach pump
That's revenge at its finest no giving up
Boy I thought I done told 'em I had enough
Who the fuck put these thoughts in my head?
How much longer 'til I'm dead?
I'm finna ride for my homies 'til we at the top with some bread
Sippin' on red
They said I'm burning in hell but I walk out thе door and can still see my breath
Fuck with my set
Catch you at the light and . burning in your chеst
Put 'em to rest -
These suicidal thoughts like a plague
I'll laugh at myself all the way to the grave
I put a gun to my head, put some coke in my nose, goddamn I was never the same
And it's fuck the fame and it's fuck the money
Get me outta this game it's way too bloody
You gon' feel my pain heard your nose was runny
I was creepin' at night 'til the sky was sunny
And I heard you switchin' up what the fuck is so funny?
You better quit that talk if I turn nothing to something
Opinions only made on assumptions
Fuck these fake friends cut 'em off in abundance
If I don't need myself why the fuck I need you?
I been screaming at the world dude I still ain't get through
I get through to myself
More and more everyday
I got the gun on my shelf
Only time will tell
Only time will tell if I'll bite that bullet
Grab the pistol, find the trigger, then pull it
Brains up on the ceiling, body is crooked
Leave a note that reads, "Mama I blew it"
Yeah