Thoughts pt.3

(verse 1)
I'm a different person I forgot who I was/ I feel nothing I feel meaningless / I feel if I left people could just Care less/ I put a fake smile just so I can go on/ but it's just way different when I am alone/ I'm an empty shell I feel so hollow / and I feel so gray/ why does no one stay/ I don't want to be here/ I don't want to be awake/ it's so painful living/ I've never felt so alone/I feel the world would be better if I was gone/ no one really cares they just say that they do / they think that they get me but they have no clue/ I've been feeling blue for about a year/ happiness is temporary that's my fear/ and it's way to real/ my heart is going cold/ it feels like steel/ I hate myself

(verse 2)
I hate myself/ I hate the way that I speak/ I hate the way that I act/ I'm sorry but that is the facts/ I hate the way that I talk/ I hate the way that I look/ I hate the way that I walk/ I hate the way that I am/ I hate everythig about myself / I'm fucking useless I am nothing/ that is just how I feel/ If you tell me that you love me I'll question if it's real/ look in the mirror & ask why am I like this/ I've been broken to many times/ no one can fix the pieces/ I'm never good enough/ I'm never decent/I've been to distant/I question my existence/ why am I here/ I really need answer/ god answer my prayers / please close this chapter/ I've been to sad/ I've been to tired/ I've been to blue/ I've been to gray/ nothing I can do/ but just stay here/ don't want to want to be here/