Thoughts Of A Grown Man

[Verse]
Moving so fast for so long, forgot what it's like
To slow down enjoy the small things, got lost in a fight
The truth is I'm fucking blessed, got many options in life
And when I'm stressed out, will I can always talk to the mic
See I got little homies winning and it make me happy
But winning brings about a ego and it's far from classy
You went from being my amigo who listen to me
To just waiting until I'm finished talking, so you can say shit at me
And I'm not trying to son you up and belittle your truth
But I got knowledge you could turn into wisdom and you
I see the similarities between you and I
And bro between you and I, I let it to [?] youth
And nowadays I know I never move without fall
The most imperfect man will be the one without flaws
So if you're perfect I can't really be around ya
But how dare you tell me I'm plotting on your downfall
I do my own thing, got love for myself
And I don't have a friend who tells me money is wealth
Y'all always partying, that shit just fuck with my health
You ask me what I'm doing, I got nothing to tell
So I ain't worried about what you're thinking, what you're drinking
Where you're been at, or who you're fucking for the weekend
The world's shallow, surface small so nothing sinks in
Only know a few the steady conscious and the deep end
Like why would I invest my time into me keeping
Good relations with ones who I don't meet, who I ain't feeding
That shit they feed off, that's self defeating
You can't [?] a person taking without giving, ain't no one can please them
I been the bad guy, more times than I can count in this life
But being human means I turn some shit around in this life
And what I'm building, ain't a soul could tear it down in this life
But the fact I have to think that way is so [?] and it's like
I gotta build defenses 'for I even work on a house
Then put my arm among, even when I work from the house
I walk on eight shifts, speaking fluent sentences
'Cause if I don't some fuckboy would probably put some words in my mouth
And this generation, empathys make ten by the age
There's no a kind ability when people make a mistake
To point a finger at a stranger try to shame in disgrace
But when they put under the telescope they pray for some grace
And our communications skills or what you say on a page
[?] and replace it with hate
Black and white are two opinions but the grey come in shades
And people show their true colors when they blame shit on race
See where I'm at is I got family, all around me and they're all unique
Color, shape and size can vary, charakter is all I need
People who I views and followers just seek attention
I be happy if the ones I love, the only ones who follow me
My vision changing, bitch I got [?]
But I don't need to be a star for me to be influential
I can touch a heart through art, help it reach it's potential
And do it from afar, keep the credits all confidential
Damn, where you been at, what you want?
They like, where you been at and what you want?
People trippin' off that
I see you out here making moves but boy your vision off track
Your riddim off track, you stuck and you stepped out the line
Got a heart full of poison, a head full of pride
And you look to [?] for information, fucking up your concentration
What you need to do is find acceptance inside
These the thoughts of a grown man, if not a wise one
I try to turn knowledge to wisdom, each day until my mind's numb
I gotta lead by example, instil the shit in my son
And I'mma keep my work in on that growth until my times done