Thoughts

[Verse]
Used to kick ball in school on the pitch
That’s when i chased my dreams
Then I wanted P’s
I was 14 serving fiends
If I pulled up I was shanking him first
I slept good at night when I done the devils work
Mum told me give my life to the lord
But I still felt cursed after praying at church
As a yute
I used to tell myself if I ever see my dad
I’mma put him in the earth
Streets turned me to a man real quick
It’s about the thousandth time I’ve got nicked
Mummy smoked me in my face ‘cuz there’s
Trident in the crib
Then I told her that I’m sorry
‘cuz she don’t deserve this shit
Now i’m deeping things I’ve done in this world
It’s got me blazing on the amm
Thinking “Am I going hell?”
The judge done refused mans bail
Now I’m in my cell like fucking hell
My arse is really going jail
Thinking if my grandad was alive
What would he say?
How would he feel about this life that I’m living
I’m only innocent through my mums eyes
That’s why I have my knife on me like we
Ain’t gonna die in these streets tonight
My girl’s on my case everyday
She said she’ll leave if I ain’t gonna change
I’mma rasclart savage
And she’s a Plain-Jane
We’re both misfits but our love is the same
The loft is where I kept my first dots
We were sliding on blocks
Praying pussios dropped
We was outting the spins
And the Glocks
We was taking trips in cabs
Just to go cop the shh
I’m at the interview room once again
My mum’s telling me to snitch on my friends
I told my mum that “It weren’t even them
It was your own son tryna catch him a M.”
She said “Don’t let the devil use your soul
You’ll fuck up your life an make your heart
Turn to stone."
She warned me ‘bout the streets ‘nuff times
I was in my jail cell thinking how my mums right
I’m not at peace, I feel trapped in my mind
I can’t sleep, this shit ain’t right

[Outro]
*Lights lighter*
Real nigga shit man