Thoughts

[Verse 1:]
Mom, I know I'd never get to say this
All my life, I've been held to these braces
Moving on to places
Asking to my angels
Where are you? And why did you had to leave?
Where did you gone? What am I gonna do with this life that you breathed
In me, and I'm sick of being called names
I'm sick of fighting this rain
How can I stand strong anymore
When I know you ain't gonna be there, when I need you
And I need you right now, where do I go now that I seek you?
Strengthen me mom and lemme reach you
You didn't gave up on me so how could I leave you?
Lemme tell ya you should've killed me
You didn't had to go, could've drilled me
Filled me with poison and should've sent me away, but no
For a hope, that ain't gonna come, and I've already soaked enough
Of my tears, never tried opening up your trunk
Finding happiness that ain't never gonna come
So I'm again held and caught up on other side of this rope
And no, I don't have love for you cause I hate you the most
Cause you've been the closest to me
You handled me for 9 months
What was that sacrifice worth of? In the dirt that you built a fortress
I've been coming up like a turtle, and I know you ain't looking at me smiling, cause all I ever got up to you was whining and shouting
And crying and lying
Momma I need you for once, it's not my time and
See mom that I need help now cause I'm finally dying!

[Chorus:]
I love you, more than you would've ever thought
I know you love me too, more than I've could've ever got
Ever and this is my life, Imma never ever leave you
You died for me, and now I'm gonna come and finally please you...

[Verse 2:]
Dad, it's crazy to even think that you left me
This upsets me, everytime that I feel you
It resseructs me, pound on my chest see
I'm best me you should see me now, I really wanna never be empty
By the thoughts, I carry up all day
By my guard, I had very much to say
But you left without even looking up
For once what did I paint
That day, I was happy
My clothes were shaggy, what about Lucy?
She took a little nappy nappy
You must have your day done
Should've already laid gun
Praying To Jesus everyday but in the end took away by Satan
I've been sleeping from the start but now I'm awaken
I'm feeling shit like a raisin
What my life did to me is amazing
But to you, I've taken the bate and widen it, straightened
I've been patient enough to see everyone leave, when finally the day's done
What kinda relationship was this even
With you leaving me breathing
Now I'm striving for every breath, what's the grievance
Concieving and leaving, I'm stuck in this deep end
I'm preaching what should've stopped
Long ago, now everyday I'm bleeding
I'm leaving what should've rocked
This world, ain't my place to be
So I'm punching my way out of this clock
I'm locked inside this cell with no locks on it
Remember​ the day when you used to buy little goodies for me
Only in the cost of your ring that you ended up pawning
I saw you sacrifice with my eyes
Still I chose to tell lies but now I'm strong enough
To reprise with my prize
I'd never got to know that
Lucy I still love you, I'd never had to show that
And I wonder if you still remember your big brother
I wish you don't have to see me now that I've grown stubborn
Learnt a lesson, that you come and go on your own
Don't count on anyone, anymore, cause it's just you
Now that I'm going forever with no emotions...

[Chorus:]
I love you, more than you would've ever thought
I know you love me too, more than I've could've ever got
Ever and this is my life, Imma never ever leave you
You died for me, and now I'm gonna come and finally please you...