​though He slay me

[Verse 1: j. sula]
Why God, why God, do I gotta suffer?
I seen kids with swollen bellies that be starving on the street
Helicopters circling 'round the block, patrol the 503
Scrolling, man got life together, say why him and why not me?
I know that my Redeemer liveth, but I can't lie
Been having doubts in my mind, like when I die will I be finished?
Eat your spinach and swallow this pill, down the hatch
Thought depression was over for me, but oops another batch
I feel like Job did, but though He slay me
I will trust, trust, trust, trust, trust 'til I fade away
And maybe answers will come dancing from the sky, I send it
Up, up, up, like I just got to pray everyday

[Bridge: j. sula]
Summertime was borderline too perfect for me
People dying, I been crying 'bout a couple exes and oh
I can't leave it in the past 'cause that's where I reside
A time-traveling man who you searching for, I could testify
Hiking up a mountain in Maui, I'm on the windward side
Building a monument to my ego, that thing fortified
Might just pull a heater on a demon, commit homicide
Send the shots down, pop pop pop, I come alive

[Verse 2: j. sula]
Nobody searching up for me
I been chilling in the house on my bull
But all of it getting real boring
I got some people I lie for, but they wouldn't do the same for me
I'm tryna stay holy but living so worldly
I guess it's a symptom of human condition, I'm living a mess
I'm 18 feeling 32, on the 91 going 91
Close my eyes and I pray 'til my lids get sore
Take this pain from me, but I still get more
And I wonder what for, and I scream to the Lord
To make it all go away, I just need to pray
But the claws in my back pull me back to the blackness, uh
Slacking on attacking the badness, uh
Is there an end? Will I just suffer until we ascend?
How can I mend when I cannot defend?
Cursing the thoughts that come to apprehend
Where are my friends? I need my Savior to come
I need some blessings, I feel like a bum
I need some unity now, forgive me for what I have said, Lord
I know You'll come through to me now

[Bridge: j. sula & FORREST]
Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him (Trust)
Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him (My God)
Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him (Jesus)
Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him

[Verse 3: FORREST]
Pressure, pressure, building up, and I can't handle it
I'm panicking, it's rigged to blow up in my face
I'm Anakin, indulge in me and I feel like the man again
And then I'm cancelling, I tell myself I can't ever go back to sin
But then I'm practicing, I turn right back to Lucy
I'm changing these days, it's like I never knew me
But Jesus still love me, He ain't got no grudges here
If He's on my side, then I got nothing more to fear

[Outro: j. sula]
I done seen a lot of things that's weighing on my mind
I been broken, I been hopeless, I'm living on my last dime
I'm a 2000's baby, baby thought I'm '99
Send up prayers to my Savior, I just hope He don't decline
I just hope that I got time today
Don't wanna throw out my life today
Everyone tell me it's sunny out
Why do I feel like the sky is gray?
Pass up this cup from me, God
I cannot handle the weight
I know my life isn't mine
Pray they didn't do it in vain
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