This Life

You ran away from your anguish
I cannot believe what I am seeing
You'd run away from yourself
Away from yourself, away from yourself
I've been raised to be, just another pawn in this world
Full of hate, full of shame and guilt
I swear I've been told I'm different
But have I proved it? Have I proved it?
No, not yet
So I'll scream until my lungs, collapse

Don't you say you'll beg
To break the spine that you wish you had
I'll take control cause I'm sick of bleeding
For everything that I hate, I'm needing
I hate this life!
I hate this life!
I swear I'll break my neck, 'cause I'm sick of bleeding
My blood clots with a black ice freezing
Memories too hard to see, I've lost control of me!

(I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lost, I'm lost)
It's not what you thought
You thought you would sail through this life
But it's never that easy
It's not what you thought
You thought you would sail through this life
But it's never that easy

You've burned your bridges (There's no one else to blame)
You've got nobody else to blame, no one to blame
Nobody else to blame, nobody else to blame
You take this for granted
You take this all for granted

Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears
So I got my nose pierced
Fuck I've wasted three years
But now it seems I'm an addict
So I'll sit up in my attic screaming
Fuck the world I've had it!

Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears
So I got my nose pierced
Fuck, three years
But now it seems I'm an addict, but I've had it!
Oh I've had it

Some months ago I came to terms with my worst fears
I got my nose pierced
I've wasted three years
But now it seems I'm an addict
(Now it seems I'm an addict)

So wake me up, when you know, where you're going
'Cause I've been waiting here for far too long
So wake me up
So wake me up

After everything destroys you, will you fight?
Will you stand? Stand up, right now, right now!