This Is How I Feel

[Intro]
Dear Lord, ask youself
"How many friends do you have by the end of the night?"
"And how many would text first if you stopped texting first?

[Verse 1]
To fully understand let me take you back a couple months (hey)
I wrote a letter to my self back in December full of grievances
The ink that signed the paper I drew blood from all the pages and
Im tryna find the peace within the chaos of my soul
While writing on my walls with full insanity, I let it go
Here’s the contents of the letter
As i wrote it, suicide note
December 27th, feel the past is catching up to me
I spent my life inside this room just tryna find my Harmony
But every single song that I have written seems to fall asleep
Cuz I been sleeping on myself since everything is bothering me
My love is locked away, she in the cellar of her pain
And while I write this note I feel the notion of the rain
This energy im floating, incoherent in the way
That I would kill myself if it would mean a better day
Im losing everything I ever wanted to the cycles
They might as well just pass me up and leave me in my castle

[Chorus]
Finding nothing seems to ever comfort in my mind
Insanity is peace, I found it truthful every time
Finding nothing seems to ever comfort in my mind
Insanity is peace, I found it truthful every time
Finding nothing ever seems to comfort in my mind
Insanity is peace, I found it truthful every time
Finding nothing seems to ever comfort in my mind
Insanity is truth and I would find it every time

[Bridge]
Oh-wah-ah-ah
La-la, la-la
La-la-la
La-la, la-la-la
(Go)
La-la, la-la
(Just go)
La-la-la-la
(Just go)
La-la, la-la
(Go)
La-la-la-la
(Just go)

[Verse 2]
Yo, so where’s the love if trust was never in your fucking motive
I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I’m tryna focus
I can’t see, I can’t breathe
You love the show and
And i know, that you was never ever really the one

[Outro]
I’ll forever be alone (ever)
(Cry all night fall)
I’ll forever be alone (ever)
Hold me close in your arms
I know, hold me close I
Know that i’ll be, alone in
This world, nothings ever
Worth it