This Home

[Intro]
I got over it now, it's just last night
A female ghost in my room asked if I'm alright
Over and over, she tryna say she ain't died
Tryna love me, but I said, I said
I cannot move on 'cause it's so hard when I feel all this hate
All of this pain
I guess it's goodbye, but I got nowhere to go but this home
Oh my God, it's 4lexf

[Verse]
I'm wondering why, why do I feel like this?
I'm weeping at home 'cause you don't give a shit
I'm just tired of trying, tired of explaining my problems to people who never experienced it
Look at my hand, I'm seein' meds
Look at my family, I know love, it's pretend
Tired of telling you stuff that you already know
Took a deep breath, and I'm ready to go
Want some good days, had some bad weeks, turned to a couple months, almost a whole year (Uh)
If I'm there, then I fear, that if I die tonight, you won't even shed a tear
'Cause I've been feeling this pain, all in my brain (Yeah)
Maybe brothers, but we're not gang (Yeah)
You can say it's my fault, and I am to blame
But if that's how you feel, then, I'll just go 'cause (Yeah)

[Chorus]
I cannot move on 'cause I feel nothing but all this hate
All of this pain
I guess it's goodbye, but I got nowhere to go but this home
I'm losin' hope, I need to move on, 'cause I feel nothing but all this hate
All of this pain
I guess it's goodbye, but I got nowhere to go but this home

[Outro]
I got over it now, it's just last night
A female ghost in my room asked if I'm alright
Over and over, she tryna say she ain't died
Tryna love me, but I said, I said
I cannot move on 'cause I did love her with all of my heart
All that time, she said, "goodbye," but i'm still writing my feelings with blood