This Beautiful Mess I’ve Made

Yeah My head swells I've been Bedridden
Out of my mind, Doctors Prescribed Pills cause my heads different
I feel when I'm alive, I'm going through hell don't feel like myself
I'm Risking my life It's bad for my health
Been feelings alone I do it myself I do it myself I do It myself, got no trust left been broke down Isolated by my home town I can't go back to my own town cause them blue pills making go arounds
I got big plans praying that towards gonna shift ends Grandma we're gonna work cause I played all my best on shit hands like big man
I face my fears Its me and me until I'm dead, you fear the dark, you fear your god, I fear my head
I lost myself I sold my life I buried friends and I could live for now for them but I'll just make a mess instead like
I face my fears Its me and me until I'm dead, you fear the dark, you fear your god, I fear my head. I lost myself I sold my life I buried friends and I could live for now for them but I'll just make a mess instead
I can't stop thinking lately trying to figure out who I hate more I came to you with my heart broken, you tried to see If It could break more, like It breaks more
I've been wildin' out east coast played a late show then got faded
Why can't't I look at myself in the mirror when everyone looking like i already made It who am I to you? Don't tell me I matter when the choice is me and another I'm counting my blessings
You're taking the ladder, I'll hold up myself My support system shattered I stay up all night and I crash in the morning I party on Tuesday I wake up hungover you pulled out the Floyd you turn on the lights and now I realize I hate myself
I face my fears its me and me until I'm dead, you fear the dark, you fear your god, I fear my head
I lost myself I sold my life I buried friends and I could live for now for them but I'll just make a mess instead like
I face my fears its me and me until I'm dead, you fear the dark, you fear your god, I fear my head. I lost myself I sold my life i buried friends and I could live for now for them but I'll just make a mess instead