This ain’t love

I always kept myself so guarded
Till you came in and made it right
You got that love I always wanted
(this ain’t love)
I know your what I’ll never fight

Another fight in the same room
Talking bout the same shit
Talking bout the same dude
You been fucking round wit
Thinking I would never know
But your girlfriends told me you were putting on a show now
Tell me where the tickets at cause I’m ready to go
Bet I caught you off guard cause a year ago I wouldn’t show up
Put in it on the back burner
Make me go insane
Feel the blood running through my veins
All my life I was to scared of change
But I
Restart and I
Refreshed and I
New man with a
NEW PERSPECTIVE
And yeah I changed and I’m tired of the fake
Thinkin they tough
How bout you put them hands down
Feel the words now
When you pull a sword out
I pull the pen out
And yeah I still feel things I don’t wanna feel now
Cause I just wanna heal now
(I just wanna heal now)

I always kept myself so guarded
Till you came in and made it right
You got that love I always wanted
(this ain’t love)
I know your what I’ll never fight
You, you and I
You, you and I

Look
Memories of the same place
Memories of the same face
I don’t know why
But
When I close my eyes all I see is you in my life
You in my life
But honestly I’m just tryna run it though
I don’t
Need you
I want someone new
I want
A fresh girl with a new attitude
Got me changing my perspective
I’m done with this life that your forcing me to live
Look I’m tired of this shit
I’m tired of the way that you keep making me feel
The way you eating at my heart got me feeling like a meal
Words were like a gun when you did everything but made me heal
And made me feel
Cause I’m trapped in this place
And I can’t go home no more
Cause I don’t know me

I always kept myself so guarded
Till you came in and made it right
You got that love I always wanted
(this ain’t love)
I know your what I’ll never fight
You, you and I
You, you and I

Now here we are stuck in the cycle again
You fuck up so I write another song
Got my mind running ramped
Thinking I’d learn by now but I never did
Starting to feel like I’m liking this pain
Anxiety bipolar and depression not the only thing fucking with my brain
Only way to cop is to light up and hit this strain
I don’t wanna feel but the only way to stay real is feeling the pain
Now I’m stuck in a loop
Where my fake friends want nothing but this fame while I’m stuck making music just so I can cop
No one understand that this shit gives me hop
Telling me to go get a 9-5 day job
It’s obvious you don’t believe in the dream
I don’t blame you when society said you’d never be anything
Yeah we fell out
But I’m still waiting for you to wake and and realize
You can be everything
(YOU COULD BE EVERYTHING!)

I always kept myself so guarded
Till you came in and made it right
You got that love I always wanted
(this ain’t love)
I know your what I’ll never fight
You, you and I
You, you and I