Thinking It

I went for a run this morning
It wasn't the best
I didn't feel very strong
Kind of limped my way through it but at least I did it
I'll get stronger and fitter over time
It's quite a good motivation when I run past people hanging out and smoking weed
Having that kind of fun
It's a weird feeling though
Because we're meant to enjoy life
And I do enjoy running other times
But I think there's a small part of me that would be enjoying this moment more if I was with them
This'll make me live longer maybe so perhaps I'll get to enjoy my old age if I'm lucky
That would be nice I guess
I'd have to quit a bunch of other things though if thats what I really want I doubt going for a run would cut it
I'd have to quit smoking and drinking
And only then would I get to enjoy my old age
Even if it means hating my youth