They always leave

PART I

They always leave i know
Life goes fast, its not slow
Regret all, since hello
Ah so long, its all so long ago
As i lay here shaking
My own soul its breaking
Know the pain i’m taking
I don’t care, forsaking

Still don’t fucking care
But do you know that you can leave now
I wish i knew everything
And i knew how to say how
All is but the truth
And yes i mean it you have my vow
Baby your a miracle and i can only say wow
You can say you love me
I think no one rarely means that
Why won't you just talk to me
Still haven’t had a full chat
Wish we had connection
And i got to call you my brat
These are all my thoughts
And i’m still hoping you won't mind that....

Fuck these laws, this system
It still needs a symptom
Please don’t play the victim
Just speak up, you miss him
I just wish you’d listen
In the sun you’d glisten
While this plot it thickened
What you did imprisoned

They just always leave
And then i don’t care bout myself
I can't put my past behind me
And i’m trapped within oneself
I forget i need to eat
And then i don’t care bout my health
I still fucking hate this city
Wanna leave the commonwealth

In my fucking head
I just feel lost, without a reason
I don’t know might kill myself
Or die within this season
I just wanna understand
And find my fucking meaning
I still wanna satisfy
I know i’m never pleasing

Find my way i lost it
Fight for life id toss it
Wheres my love i lost it
Wheres my life i tossed
They always leave i know
They always leave don’t go
They always leave i know
They always leave don’t go...

PART II

Every time i love someone
They’re gonna leave me
I don’t know whats going on
And you won't feel me..
My heart isn’t beating
And i know that i’m misleading
You still wanna be with him
I know that he’s mistreating

I still hate myself
But at the time i still find a way to love myself
But i hate.... all the shit that i do
Cause if my demons tell the truth
Ah i can never be with you

I just look for satisfaction
In the simplest of things
And try but i’m still lonely
Fucking hopeless and it stings
In my mind i search for clarity
Can't find it then it dings
What i need is all in me
And imma live my destiny

And in holding off on suicide
Won't let it get the best of me
Cutting off relationships
And saving all my energy
Yes ill do this music shit
Until i’m fucking elderly
Honestly just started
But already do it expertly

Its all in my head
Like why can't i get out of bed
I’m always feeling dead
All these fuckers wanna test me
They can't feel my dread
I’m like slump i feel the chaos
Paint the world in red

They will always leave
Its no matter what i do
Cuz yea they still deceive
And ill look inside the mirror
Why can't i believe
Every time i see myself
Ah i can't help but grieve

Fell in love 2 easy
And it left me fucking broken
Coughing out my insides
And it has me fucking choking
Death is but a symbol
Or its maybe just a token
I don’t wanna say 2 much
I feel i have misspoken

Ahhh they will always leave
I care too much about the others
Thats not what i need
Just need to save myself
And free myself until i bleed
Still i’m throwing hands with demons
Feels like fucking creed

End this. all of my pain and i can't pretend this
Intend, only want happiness over your end
My end, hope its not too soon
I need 2 amend this
Stop this. you wanna leave
But its fucking none sense

Ahhh bitch
Still wanna leave me right after everything
All you did was lie
When you said that i was your everything
Now im fucking numb
And i dont think that i feel anything
I can try my best still they always leave
You dont want me