These Words (Again)

[Verse 1]
Lot of early shit is corny
Not for this tip is for me
When I'm sorting through the jumble inside my head like every morning
Most life is dull and boring, yah, yah
Not right for telling stories (Yah, yah)
What's left is often gory, yah, yah
Show death in all it's glory
Got too much shit to figure out and not enough will to do it
Yes, of covered in slate and ruin
Yes, still cockier than I'm fluent
Who in God's name is still hammering on my door
Unless you Thanos or you Thor, better plan on something more
Nobody gets to me, yeah
We live in mystery, yeah
Don't cross your I with your T and end in misery
This feelin' isn't me
Connect incessantly 'til everyday I'm for 'em but this logic don't make sense to me
My mind come design with some dark matter density
A time's on my rhyme, wack bars like penitentiary
My mic's about to take over, yeah
That's so might get to me
So, just miss me in bout fifteen minutes
Be into me then
We'll find some interesting to binge
Until we set to meet the ends
[?] meet us again
Guess you'll never mention me to friends
So close all the time, losing hope, I'll be fine
I'm just broke, I don't mind, I'm just low, I'm just blind
We can search for the best of me, like I just work to invest in me
These words don't mean I'll rest in peace
These words don't mean I'll rest in peace, yeah

[Chorus]
These words are easy
These words are hard
I just keep spittin' em out, sendin' 'em out, I'm thinnin' em out

[Verse 2]
My peers progression, can't give them my attention
It's funny, now I think about the tension
Things not workin' out seems so destined
But I guess I needed those lessons
I don't know what for
I just know I don't keep score
I don't really fuck with the lore
Stories that you long when you're bored
Set a boundary just to win an award
Sit 'em down, we beginnin' the chorus
Ain't about me, we in it for more
In and out, least we ended up short, yeah
Nothing that you thought would happen happened
Now you lost in that shit, now you got no passion
Now you switchin' lanes, but you afraid to crash it
You are made a mess and now you hear 'em laughin'
Fuck it, it's in your past
Couldn't have been so bad
But it didn't go right
You ain't gettin' those back
Gotta let it go, if not, let grow on these pedestals that they set in gold
Can't indulge in on antidotes, no antidote, it's [?]
Do it for me and I do it a lot
I don't believe in the truth in the thought
I just been dreamin', I knew I've been lost
I got some words I knew I forgot
Fuck