​​​​these days

[Verse]
I just came to say my life is hittin’ different these days
The world I live in isn’t real, it’s fake, it’s just a dreamscape
I hide inside my mind whenever I feel like I need space
Time stands still like a picture, when I think “freeze frame"
Making adjustments, yeah I just moved to the city
I see the vision even clearer now, I’m back on my grizzy
I light the swisher just to start my starry night gettin’ dizzy
Then put my pen and pad to work, y’all aready know I get busy
I’ll never slow down, I got too much ridin’ on this
No one understands I give it all to rap, relyin’ on it
I stay on the mic so much, might fuck around and die up on it
Genius with the flows cuz I sold my soul, I’m diabolic
Cold blooded, a machine when it come to this
Makin’ money, I can’t check it off my bucket list
I’m heartbroken, this depression make my stomach twist
Off the pills again, the Perkies make my muscles twitch
Real problems, everybody’s got ‘em
But these ones is unique to me, I promise you don’t want ‘em
My reflection keeps on eating me alive, I’m tryna starve ‘em
Keep my head above the water ‘fore I sink down to the bottom
It’s impossible to settle down with too much paranoia
When you feel like something’s out for you and trying to destroy ya
I get lonely when my memories remind me that I’m no one
My emotions ain’t the only thing that I can’t get a hold of
No one’s on the way to save me, no one loves me, no one hates me
Purgatory, no escaping, only facts, I gotta face it
Life’s a joke, pure entertainment, it’s a movie, pick your favorite
Once it’s on, no way to change it, hope you’re happy being famous
On to the next step, which is my next breath
Taking this shit day by day, I think that’s my best bet
Every night I lay wide awake, I stress, I don’t get rest
Married to the game right away, it became my best friend
I just came to say the words I write come from my heart
An open window to my very being, the wounds before they scarred
It isn’t easy being vulnerable but everything is hard
When you grow used to no one givin’ a fuck about who you are