These Are The Days

These are the days
These are the only days
This is the only only
But these are the days that feel like those other days
Each moment is open open
These are the days I used to see in dreams
These are the days I told me I would receive
These are the days I used to believe I was trying to show me
I could'vе used these days
Whеn the days were those days
When the days used to pass so slowly
And when they have gone
I will remember these days as the days when I had a focus
That I do not feel in the moment
Only the moment I know only the moment the whole sky is broken it opens upon me
These are the days
These are the only days
So why can't I feel them hold me
Why must I sit in the wake of the days
Watching them pass like they are not golden
These are the golden moments
But these are the days that I turn my back on
These are the days I let go of
Looking for days
That used to be days
Or days still to come
Nothing was broken
But I made it break
'Cause I couldn't wait for the days to be filled with emotion I couldn't rest
I wanted obsession adrenaline, mess
I wanted devotion
But I didn't know
Why I was so pressed by distraction
Why I was so desperate to let it all go
Let it all grow from the moment
Take it apart just to know it can never be broken
Make it an art walk-in away from the good ones
When I should've listened but what's hidden
Is only revealed when you're looking for pattern
These are the days when I regained my balance
For now I am sat without love or compassion
Defeating myself because I made it happen
But no more comparisons
No shade no shame no vanishing flames at the edge of the frame
No practising only the main it's all spilling out of my veins all these mannequins turned looked away when I came how embarrassing
Stop shouting your name in my ears
I'm not panicking
I am right here
I am right here
I am managing
These are the days that the other days span
Don't bother me don't understand
Don't follow me into the sand
Don't wallow in bed until air becomes solid

You were all presence
And I was all plans
But these are the days
When I felt the days
Rise in my body
And I took them in hand
These are the days
When I feel the days
Rise in my body
And I take them in hand