Therapy session

Gun to my head, cold, scared to shoot it
I do this music cus it's therapeutic
Barely knew myself, i'm still a careless student
And as humans, we wonder where the crew is

Our two cents given as tips, regular customers
Greet, mention how the weather is, well, it's been better, miss
Look, i don't want to rain on anyone's parade
But if it was a sunny day, i'd be standing under the shade
The light hurts my eyes
I find comfort in the dark
And i'm surprised

Cus i used run the stairs after turning off the light
And now i hang back, the monster and i are tight
A lot of traits we share, things that we dislike
See, we're on the same track, the same train of thought

I've been loco with my motives but repress the pain a lot
It's funny how a few words can say it all
You can bruise me, stab me, kill me, but please don't get my brain involved
Nah, and leave my heart out

I've always been a smart mouth in the dumbest ways
Mostly that's because i rarely know what to say
Emotion's an ocean, happiness comes in waves
The water's been still lately

I'm still waiting on the day that i'm not still hating my reflection
Gun to my head, the barrel's never ending
Just another therapy session