Therapy

PART I

[Intro]
This fucking beat, this fucking pen, this fucking ink
Is all, it’s all my fucking therapy
Yeah

[Verse]
As I sit back and reminisce on my life
I often wonder what things would be like
If I never started rapping, if I never met Jackson
What if I ain’t meet Uylus on PlayStation?
What the fuck would be happening?
Like, what if I never dropped Back to Back
Or made any track, back to back?
Volume 1 to Volume 2, what if I left 'em on the rack?
Cause I thought that shit was whack
What the fuck would I be doing then?
But now I’m never looking back, cause
All the drugs and shit, use to cope with the pain
I hate being outside, I can’t stand the rain
All this fake gangster shit, that you try to maintain
Bout as fake as my smile on a day to day, yeah
But, I’ll drop the album, then I disappear
Never thought that I would be here
I’m done putting faith in my fears
Don’t look back never check the rear
Look at the man in the mirror
Changed a lot from when I was 10
I’ve wanted this since I was a kid
Since I was rapping in the closet with my niggas
It’s crazy to look at what we did
And how far we done came
Momma taught me how to never be lame
So I branched out and then I carved my own lane
With all this self deprecation there’s no time for meditation
I got an ego that’s as bout as thin as my patience
I’m forever underrated, over appreciated
Yet I still haven’t made it
Everything I’ve ever done they try to downplay it
All alone on my own journey, but still spreading positivity
I haven’t realized I’m successful in my own way
But, maybe one day I’ll figure it out
Until then, let me see what all this shit is about
I’m out, yo

[Interlude: Tracy Joe]
You know something Reece?
You need to just be yourself
Be yourself
Whatever that self it is, you need to find who Reece is
You need to find out who Reece is
You need to find out who you are
Who do you think you are Reece?
Do you think you're smart?
Then be smart
Do you think you’re funny?
Then be funny
Do you think you’re easy going?
Well, and then sometimes you’re not
And that’s okay not to be easy going all the time
It’s okay not to be smart all the time, it’s okay not to be funny all the time
Live up the expectations that you set for yourself
Don’t let other people define you, don’t even let me define you
And I know I’ve put some un--pressure on you and if I did I’m sorry that I did
But you need to--you know what, be yourself Reece cup cause I’m gonna love you no matter what
No matter what
My love is unconditional Reece
It doesn’t depend on you being smart
It doesn’t depend on you being funny
It doesn’t depend on you being easy going
I love you Reece no matter what
Be yourself

PART 2

[Verse]
I used to think I’d have it all figured out by now
Problems be solved, throw em all behind the back by now
Me and my niggas would be living good
I could tell em how I’m doing everything that I said I would
But I’m still stuck in my old ways, my old home
People call me and get the old tone
Cause I done put down my phone, not answering it, please leave me alone
Unless you my mom, my girl, or one of the people I’m relying on
They all got my back, but that’s about it
I’m not gonna come on this track and try to start shit
But how you tell someone you’ll always have their back, but you call it quits?
I think that’s just ridiculous, let’s get back to it
Cause people don’t feel what you say unless it’s truly real
But I still have to hide the way I truly feel
I can’t let no one see all this pain that I feel inside
I haven’t truly been happy since the day my grandmother died
That was 2020, do the math it’s been 3 years
They say time heals all, why am I still crying these fucking tears?
Tryna do all of this shit without my grandmother here
All this stress and shit from work got me losing sleep
My friends saying I need therapy
All the shit I’m saying and doing got em scared of me
Cause I text em when I got suicide on my mind
And I guess they scared cause they know I could do it anytime
So many ways I get lost in my mind
But I keep you close so that shit is easier to find
I’m either all alone or off the grid I can’t even decide

[Outro: Donald Glover]
Afterwards, and I felt bad
Cause I was like, broke my foot
I kinda let people down
And I remember my dad saying, he’s like “You do what you’re supposed to do, like, every moment is special”
You know
I lost my dad this year, we lost Nipsey, we lost Mac
What I’m starting to realize, is that all we really have is memories
At the end of the day, that’s all we are
It’s like all we are is like really like data
And you pass on to your kids, and you pass it on to your friends, your family
The problem with like us, like millennials, like everybody here
We have so much data, like we know what’s gonna happen
Where we’re too afraid to plant a tree that we know we’re not gonna eat from
You know? Cause that’s
There’s a hundred thousand of you out here right now like
There’s a chance, there’s a good chance, that some of y’all
At least one of y’all won't see next week
So what I’m saying is, while you’re here, while we’re here
Feel something, and pass it on