The Test

[Chorus]
I'm failing the test of life
I have no hope anymore
All my mistakes combined
For a low score in the end

[Verse 1]
Gotta escape the stress, makin' me stay depressed
Every day take the test of life, do it the best of my ability
I don't wanna really justify what I'm feelin', B
Prolly say I'm blessed to find a meal and drink
I guess that I'm just really weak
Rest my eyes when feelin' bleak
Can't touch the sky, ceilin' impedes
Willfully throw my hеad in a guillotine
Got this will in me, wanna feel and see death
Wanna stick 'еm up and then die like a killer bee
Got a million legs like a millipede and still can't stand up
Skillfully craft, but I will still man up
Willingly rap, but I still feel handcuffed
A real deal? Yeah, bruh, gimme the pen
'Cause my dad has cancer, they keep going in
But it keeps coming back, I don't really care
'Cause we need that cash 'cause we chokin' for air
Need to breath bad, there might be a relief
One day of the pain, I'm unleashin' the beast
Don't wanna say it but I'm prayin' that I can at least
Score a way above grade in the end, I have sinned
Therefore, I repent, but they done wrong to me
And there more innocent? That don't make any sense, damn

[Chorus]
I'm failing the test of life
I have no hope anymore
All my mistakes combined
For a low score in the end

[Verse 2]
Maybe I should just die, maybe set myself ablaze
Or go back through time, so I can help myself and say
Something to change the past and I can check my health and may-
Be make sure I turn on the second road today, but
Not even Novocain injected to the brain could help the pain
Suffocate myself with cellophane
When will it stop? There's no tellin', man
I'm willin' to pop, instillin' pain to just the kill the brain
I'm willin' to flop, I will inflame every page
And I'm willin' to stop, the deal, the game, skill, the fame
If it really will block the feeling, 'kay? I'd give it all up
Every pill I take is a real mistake
Just instills my fate of never feelin' great
Gettin' operated on while I'm still awake
What is real or fake? Can't tell, but fate still awaits
I can feel a way about it but
Only time can tell what's next for Embis
Told you I prevail, got unfinished business
Shout out Eminem, JID and Kendrick
Can't forget XXXTENTACION
Tryna take your legacies and pass it on
Can't focus on the goal, need some Adderall
Tryna add up all the good in my mind
To make some something rad is all
That I want, adda boy, yeah

[Chorus]
I'm failing the test of life
I have no hope anymore
All my mistakes combined
For a low score in the end