​the summer i grew up

Part I

[Verse 1]
Lost in my days, I still feel a little helpless
How about for old time's sake
Let me hold you again (hold you again)
I should've been more careful
But I knew what I was
I'm fighting all my reasons to go back to you
This the day that I knew
This the summer I grew up

[Chorus]
I don't even wanna be me
I don't even wanna see me
I don't even wanna be me
I don't even—
This the summer I grew up
I know I fucked you up too many times
Baby, you don't even gotta tell me
I just wanna feel you
Let me heal you, ooh woah
I wish that you had knew that I had cared about us
I was thinking 'bout you when I was laying with her
Wish my problems could fade away
I'm in love and you hate me
I think we're on the same page

[Verse 2]
Open the door, open the door
I can't be someone else
I'm fucking up every time I left
Told myself this is for the best
But this is the hardest one yet
This the summer I grew up

[Chorus]
I don't even wanna be me
I don't even wanna see me
I don't even wanna be me
I don't even—
This the summer I grew up
I know I fucked you up too many times
Baby, you don't even gotta tell me
I just wanna feel you
Let me heal you, ooh woah
I wish that you had knew that I had cared about us
I was thinking 'bout you when I was laying with her
Wish my problems could fade away
I'm in love and you hate me
I think we're on the same page

Part II

[Verse]
Sometimes I feel like I can't
Don't wanna take the high road
I'm running out of days
I'm running out of reasons tryna think why you should be with me
I'm working on my patience, I'm still waiting, it's surreal to me
How could you not get it?
How could you not get it?
I'm tired of running away

[Outro]
So I'm gonna do it 'cause you told me
Baby, please believe me
Miss the way you hold me
I know this can't be easy
I'm tryna make a case for me
But I don't think she's buying it
She said, "Let me know when you find you
'Cause I don't think you found it yet"