The smiling face

Dont take feelings as a freakin joke
You dont know the pain inside a smiling face when its fuckin broke
Life seems so hard,heart just feel so low
Love is beautiful that i was told
But got cheated several times by my own
Man,i try not to fall in love again
Cause after all what we do is "fall" again
So i wanna see how things can go standing
Be a man,follow my dreams
Had enough of the scars and screams
Had enough of the kisses and flings
Ran enough for the queen bein a king
Spent enough on the motherfucking rings
Now i wanna smoke and have a damn drink
Maybe if i can sniff somethin n sink
Inside it hopin i die
Cause its too hard to live knowing our love was a lie
Weed inside my pockets,drugs on my mind
Thinkin i am gonna be all fine
When we all know i am fuckin up my life
I dont believe in god but i cry in front of them every single night!
Why? I am scared of losing you and my damn mind
I feel like a psychopath who killed his own wife
Then took the sharp knife and slit the throat of his own kids
Damn,i dont wanna be like this
I am living so weak i may dying
Just running from my fears
Tears on my cheek when i look at this mess on the mirror
Why do i love her? She don't give a Fuck,ah

I walk on this bridge
All day,night
Wanna talk with this bitch
All day,night
But when she's in front
With that smiling face
Damn,i wanna die x2

Do you ever think about me?
Damn,i was the one who helped you to get on your feet
Now you wanna start this war and beat
The man who always had his hand around your shoulder
Always had a hand to wipe your tears
Always had a hand to fuckin cheer
Anyways you're just a snake,dear
Shut the fuck up,i can't just hear
You speaking lies while looking straight into my eyes
Nice bitch,nice skills
Wise bitch,wise bitch
High five,suck my
Ah
Don't know how many times we kissed
But do know how many times i caught you kissin,pissed
Then you come up to me with a cute face to soften my fist
Baby girl,you took me so light
I took you so right
Dinner at the moonlight
Gave a ring to you,oh my
What a fool i was that night
Wait,where's your ring?
Ah right
500 dollars inside the trash bin
Now you call me a bastard?
Still i am controlling my mouth not to say the S word(Slut)
Cause somewhere deep down i still have some
Feelings for you,isn't it handsome?

I walk on this bridge
All day,night
Wanna talk with this bitch
All day,night
But when see's in front
With that smiling face
Damn,i wanna die x2

I dont wanna be like this/i dont wanna be like