The saddest song in the world

(I don't know what I'm trying to say)
(I've got lots to say)
(Yeah)
Hold on, I think I'm 'bout to break
I got a couple different girls, they all comin' my way
I could be with you for now, but please don't ask me to stay
I've been dreaming of the day, they'll know that I ran away
And I don't know what I'm trying to say
Well I know but I don't know exactly how I should say it
I wrote a song for you, I watch, waiting for you to just play it
I hate myself, I hate my life, and I don't like conversation
But I'm
So happy that you're with me today
I never felt so amazing baby thank you for stayin'
I never believed in anything but thank you for prayin'
My addictions adding up just from the shit Im portrayin'
Disregard all the shitty things I said
And pick the pretty parts up out the words that work out
It's been a minute since I died and I don't think that I slept
I can never sleep at night and never got out of bed
I said please, just don't let me drown
Even if I ask you to
Even if I have to do this
I don't really know how
You got me drinking by myself
I've lost my mind and I can't tell
How I made something so beautiful into a living hell
Said big problem 'cuz I can't do a little
And everybody sayin' go to rehab, they don't get it
I'm not addicted to these drugs but I got other addictions
I'm just addicted to this feeling I can't find and I miss it
I walked the path to Babylon, and didn't find shit
Just me starin' at me telling me that I don't know shit
I was on my knees starin' a---