The Rush

You said you need to love yourself
Before you can love anyone else
And that´s hard
When all ive loved is you
And i got jealous casuse i was afraid
That anyone else would see the same things
i saw in you
tell me to go then beg me to stay
you sent a message to me by mistake
And we talked on the phone so you felt okay (again)
And you were so broken you left me the same
You told me you loved me and messed with my brain
But i´m okay
we both said sorry way to much
And we promised each other that we´d keep in touch
And that´s hard
When i don´t wanna talk
You broke my heart just once or twice
And i´d let you do it a million times
´Cause i guess
I got addicted to the rush
How stupid was i to finally believe
That someone like you could see something in me
I don´t miss how we loved
But i miss how we talked sometimes
Its quarter past three in the morning i try
To sleep but i sent you a message goodbye
And it took forty minutes for you to reply
I swear i´m fine
´Cause holding on hurts more than letting go
And being ignored killed me
´Cause you attention meant the most
But i couldn´t see
You were intoxicating me
You broke my heart just once or twice
And i´d let you do it a million times
´Cause i guess
I got addicted to the rush