The Ruminations of a Lonely Cowgirl

I’m a vagabond, a dirty pariah
I got pain in my veins and riot in my heart
Been waiting for so long, my head is on fire
Put it out
Ain’t got no time to lose my destiny awaits
See, I was born for this and I could never quit
But is it worth my youth and all the years I’m wasting on it?

As I’m driving down the motorway
On a cold and boring Saturday
I think to myself
‘This ain’t living, it’s hell’
Deep down I know I need something else

Take me to the place
Where it all begins
And nothing ever ends
I die to see it again
Nothing in my hands
Fuck what could’ve been
No need to pretend
They don’t have to understand

Stuck in a tunnel, running fast, but I can never see a light at the end
I always need to prove the world that I don’t need no one but myself
But I’m no protagonist and I’m no better than anyone else
It’s been a long and lonely journey and quite frankly I could use some help

As I’m driving down the motorway
On a cold and boring Saturday
I think to myself
‘This ain’t living, it’s hell’
Deep down I know I need something else

Take me to the place
Where it all begins
And nothing ever ends
I die to see it again
Nothing in my hands
Fuck what could’ve been
No need to pretend
They don’t have to understand

I know there’s more to this life than this
But how do I find it?
I know there’s more to this life than this
But how do I find it?
I know there’s more to this life than this
But how do I find it?
I know there’s more to this life than this
But how do I find it?

[Hidden track]: Fairbanks

As I close my eyes
A million voices keep calling me out
I know what they say is all lies
But still it’s keeping me up at night
That’s why I’ll never sleep again
I’ll never sleep again