The Relapse Process

Incomplete, you completed me
But who am I kidding in reality you ruined me
I miss my innocence, wish I could fix this
Gone beyond repair, desperations all that’s there
Incomplete, you completed me
But who am i kidding in reality you ruined me
Incomplete you completed me
OH

I still think of you often, even if you left me here to rot and
I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forget why i’m here in the first place
I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forgot why I even fucking chose to stay

I’m in pieces, I can’t keep myself together, so i’ll
Forget about myself, why should I make an effort?
I’m coming undone, use me as you will
Pull my strings, until my self esteem rebuilds
The guilt the guilt oh I know the drill
I’ll apologize for everything until time stands still
Until time stands still, use me as you will

I still think of you often, even if you left me here to rot and
I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forget why i’m here in the first place
I’m trembling caught up in the worst days, I forgot why I even fucking chose to stay

Scathing takes shape in my brain, fathoming the senseless and the insane
With all that takes place rationality doesn’t feel the same

Psychotic break desperation is all that I know
Holding on to hoping I can eventually let go

I’m stressing over all the things I can’t control
Bending over backwards attempting to feel whole
My mind is wandering off tonight, my thoughts they decompose
This vacancy too comfortable for me to let go