The Rain

[Verse 1]
I wonder what it's like to not have any type of problems
I see these people high and mighty, no one can stop 'em
It seems my life already ended, a part of me died with you
No more pretendin', I forget it's never-ending
And I fought this war for way too long, I hate I lost you so soon
You had the most beautiful features, you always lit up the room
Sometimes I stare at the moon, hopin' maybe I could see your face
But I know we won't meet again until I meet my grave
And that's okay, because I know you're safe
Thе only problem is you're not herе to help me fight this hate
That I built up since you left
I don't hate the world, because I'm too busy hatin' myself
I didn't have the chance to let you know I loved you
I hope you hear this up there, but I know it's tough to
Understand it from my point of view
Because you'll never know the feeling 'til someone does it to you
And it's sad, I was so mad at you for doing what you did
That I didn't even realize how much it hurt your kids
I held your daughter in my arms while she was screaming
It was the hardest part, because I couldn't believe it
Maybe you didn't do it, maybe it was someone else
But God had a decision to make, and he let it take your health
I don't want it to sound like I'm pissed off
But I want you to know exactly what I've lost
'Cause I-

[Hook]
I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing
And I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing

[Verse 2]
Man, it's getting harder every day
It's been three years and it still feels like yesterday that you went away
And I pray, but it don't seem to have an effect on nothin'
It's a struggle to find happiness, but I keep huntin'
'Cause I wanna smile, I wanna laugh
I'm tired of being so upset because I can't change the past
Jamir is getting sold, but you should him potty-trained and everything
He's already running around and speakin'
Me, Milly, and Megan, we gettin' really close
'Cause we realize family's everything, so we make the most
Out of what we got, we trust each other
We got each other's back, but I know Megs misses her mother
All I ask is you to tell God
To let the sun shine, 'cause it's been a while and I think it's about time to feel some warmth on my skin
Before we have to go through something else and be off in the cold again
All I'm tryna say is: we miss you so much
We never wanted you to go, it got so tough
Times got so rough, and we're slowly climbin' out of this rut
We wanted to let you know we love you, I hope this song is enough

[Hook]
I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing
And I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing

[Outro]
I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing
And I live my life in the rain
Silence scares me 'cause it screams my name
I wish you were here to ease my pain
But I know I can't change a thing