the odd one out

[VERSE 1]
I’m hyper-fixated, well I think
It’s a day-to-day basis, with clarity
It’s not at all gracious, a disparity
The moment I lay on methamphetamine

It kind of be feeling like a disgrace
Not paying attention to one’s affairs
But what can I say if I don’t give a shit
Of hearing the news of your armchair

Spacing out, the odd one out
They say “Try new things and you’ll find out”
But they never named it, they never explained it
Might be ADHD, that’s why I burn out

It’s not even funny that
They might even call my dad
“Alright mister, here’s a gum
We gonna be talking of your past”

Sometimes I feel like I’ve always known that, no doubt, I was weird
The one who’s always inside a house who thinks about the career
And jumping from a place to another without never make it clear
“You’re incoherent and inconsistent”, no mum, I’m just so sincere

It’s so insane, makes me be willing to
Throw my brain, right in the junk but
The pain remains, and I never seem to find
A way to stay on whatever it is entertaining me
A way to be focused, a way to stay focused
No reason I don’t know but maybe you noticed
Turn off the remote ‘cause it’s past 8

[Chorus]
Since when I was young it never made sense
Maybe just knowing would give me a chance
To become the best, yeah girl you can
Girl you can

[VERSE 2]
With the beat, talkin’ real
Shit, she means to see the deal
With hip-hop, her knit top
Fucking with her favorite song

She be like “Gee, think twice!
This is not so ladylike!”
But you see I really like
Some bits of uneasy life

Gotta see the problems that I cause in astronomically
Long amount of projects that I thought will make me ironically
Comically better than majority of the population
Sonically, working on my songs is a temptation
And I don’t know how to solve 'em cause the longer I avoid 'em
They be pointing a blade on me and recall the way I started
And erotically I'm willing of astonishingly making everyone
Feel like I’m on my way to form the life I want

Broke the toaster, won’t replace it
Roller coaster, never made it
Seize the moment? Imagination!
Ain't a boaster, but wrong narration
See? I’m ready for my ration
Of some energy and attention
Peace, respect and abnegation?
Nah, the world needs s-some self obsession

Everything t-tries to seduce me
Everything relies on the new me
All the shit may die where they threw me
She never replied, she just blew me off
In and out my thoughts, it must be real tough
I can’t even concentrate to write a motherfucking song
Because i can’t seem to be focused, my attention fucking lost

“Tiktok tiktok”, i might screw it
Gonna post a vid, just a few will
Interact with it and the truth is
If I want his likes might just use him
There is who sings, who produces
And I’m the one with the bruises
I ain’t gon write for the sake of likes
All the same we like it’s just gloomy

[Chorus]
Since when I was young it never made sense
Maybe just knowing would give me a chance
To become the best, yeah girl you can
Girl you can

Girl you can