The Nothing

[Verse 1]
I used to be filled with no doubt at all, tried to win, it's only drown or fall
Everyone told me I'm bound to fall, filling out apps, but I doubt they call
Slept under bridges for months, nowhere to go, I was fucked
I looked at time, so I'm stuck wit no family, no money, no homies, I'm shit outta luck
So what? Life is tough, tried to talk shit, but I'm off the bottle
When I get sick, I turn Nosferatu
Yelling out "Bitch let's go mano y mano"
We can get Lit in this here McDonald's
People tell me I could make it if I would switch up and give up on this horror shit
Them is the same ones whom ain't nevеr been in that padded room off of that Thorazine
I can go on and on about the dark, lifе but I'm sleeping nights up at da park
Everyone stuck a knife up in my heart, now I just stick to biting, I don't bark
No one to hang when they say that chu brazy, better off by my self, I stay wit .380
I hit the streets, bitch I've never been lazy, fuck all that peace, I want cheese and da gravy
So many nights I done spent on da bathroom floor, with that blade to my wrist, I was glad to go
Had to stop myself, my kids was at the door, I don't want them to find me dead at this bowl
I'm just in my mental, ain't no sentimental, I'll break ya denim, nigga, fuck a change
I dun blacked out, all I think about is people on the net saying "Fuck the brain"
Nigga fuck the fame, sick is in my brain, not a mutha fucka wanna bet on me
I was living life way up on the edge, they gon' probably find me dead up in the street
Ain't no fucking sheep, life is over wit, people dropping dead off this COVID shit
Maybe I won't make it out this horror show, maybe I will end up on the floor sick
So I write this letter, like sorry I had to go
But then I had thoughts of my kids waking up in the morning like "Where did my daddy go?"
So I made a choice, I'ma stay and help them all out wit they grades
But that's in the day, cuz when the sun goes down I stay, giving them all razorblades

[Verse 2]
They know I will strike with that venom, they don't want a nigga back with the voodoo
Time I had to go and put one in your denim, I'ma wait for them to fall down cause they all sound like doodoo
Thinking that you really all that, but I saw that on Hulu
Who knew I would see a nigga dressed up in a tutu?
I am really with the rappin' but your actin' is poopoo
I been tryna sit and maintain, but the Insane is cuckoo
Now we turnt up, baby, sip this shit, pass the green
I'mma have to murder everybody in the game dipped in gasoline
They not really with it I'mma hit em with the Ice Cube, "No Vaseline"
I don't wanna be cheesy, too easy to smash your team
Time for me to seal your fate, brain gang, hard for me to really maintain
I aim thangs, I'm never comin' with the same thang
I ain't finna sit and talk, I go bang bang
Pull up on you lil mothafuckas who be runnin' 'round the street talkin' 'bout gang gang gang
I don't ever wanna see another pair of skinny jeans in my lifetime
Matter fact I'm bout to take em all back, Brainsick when I write rhymes
I ain't even trippin' on you niggas, you're the enemy now but it's my time
Adios a mothafucka, take another shot back through the pipeline
In the night time, ain't nobody on my level, they don't wanna meddle with the one
Always fill em with the pain, but I gotta maintain it some
They be like "Please stop!", better when you go out on top
I'm like "Ain't nobody finna go nowhere, it's just begun, lil BITCH"