The Nihilist In My Thoughts

[Chorus]
I been plotting my own demise every day
Only reason I'm still going is that look on your face
My only goal is that I wake up and I’m not a disgrace
The fear of losing who I love is always blocking my way

I been too damn scared to say what I want
Way too many days I'm in bed while I rot
Existential brain storming is making me cough
I can't escape it, theres a nihilist in my thoughts

[Verse]
Living with no purpose everyday I feel so damn lost
I hate this feeling in my gut I’m always stalking my watch
This mic is getting more attention than the rest of you lot
I'm the reason for my pain at least that's what I've been taught
Terrified of god
Someone give me your trust
(ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay, ay)

[Chorus]
I been plotting my demise every day
Only reason I'm still going is that look on your face
My only goal is that I wake up and I'm not a disgrace
The fear of losing who I love is always blocking my way

I been too damn scared to say what I want
Way too many days I'm in bed while I rot
Existential brain storming is making me cough
I can't escape it theres a nihilist in my thoughts

[Outro]
Someone give me your trust
Someone help with my lust
My lungs just turn into rust
I just wanna cut-