The Man I Swore To Be

Shh

I've got this feelin'
I've yet to shake
And I don't know how much more
Of this feeling I can take before I
Chip, chip, chip
Like an old decaying paint
It's always present, even if at times, it's faint

I'm slowly growin' ever lonely
And worst of all the only
Perp at fault is me, me, me
Seems I'm not the man I swore to be
And you're not the man
You're not the damned I wanna see

My cursed reflection in the mirror
And under the weight of my imperfections
I can hear her
Desperately trying to guide me the right direction
But I fear
There's a crack in the glass
And it's made things unclear for me

You're not the voice I need hear
Grant me the courage to voice my needs here
So my voice might reach ears
That aren't deaf to my cries
Let me hear it just
One more time

Say you're proud of me
Say you're proud of me
Say it loud enough
To scare the thoughts surrounding me
Blow away my doubts
Because I know that you were counting on me
To keep you close

Say you’re proud of me (Say you're proud)
Say you’re proud of me (Say it loud)
Say it loud enough
To tear the heartbeat, pounding out my chest
Or grab me by the neck (By the neck)
Unraveling my head til I join you in---
Death

[Himself, Herself]
I loved you so
I beg you to forgive
And still let go
It's you who should have lived..
It's cause I know that
You'll spring back from this
You knew I couldn't dare
You're more than fit
Move forward, for I'm scared
(Move forward, though you're scared)
I'm too afraid to run if you're not there
You've been so brave alone
It's hard to bear this weight that's ours to share
(This weight's ours to share)
Tch

I've got this feelin'
I've yet to shake
And I don't know how much more
Of this feeling I can take
So I'll chip, chip, chip
At my heart until it breaks
And I'll rebuild
If not for me, then it'll be for her sake
So even if it's fake
I'll pave away the pain
And that's a guarantee

So stay awake
For simply long enough to see
Me walk the way
You gave your all to leave for me

[Non-Lyrical Vocals]

So stay awake for simply long enough to see
I’ll walk your way
Until I’m strong enough to be
Strong enough for me