The Hot Water Test

My doctor's told me that I had a disease
I will slowly fall apart until there's nothing left
That looks like me
I smiled at people as I walked to my car
To call my wife
I told her everything the doctor's had said
Then we both began to cry

She said, "Easy can be hard to do."
"Life can be ugly or beautiful and new."
"It's up to me, and it's up to you."
She said, "Heaven isn't hard to see."
"It looks like life with a family."
"In this house that we call home, I will never leave you."

I take my shots and I walk the walk
In every kind of way
I look for a balance in the things
That get harder every day
I'm afraid I will never be the man that I used to be
I'm afraid I will never be the man that I want the world to see
When it looks at me

I know, easy can be hard to do
Life can be ugly or beautiful and new
It's up to me to do what I have to do
I know, heaven isn't hard to see
It looks like life with my family and me
In this house that we call home
I will never leave you alone

I will never leave you
I will never leave you alone
I will never leave you
I will never leave you alone

I wanna go in my own time
I wanna find a brand new loud
I wanna feel safe until they put me in the water
And the truth comes out

Oh, happy can be hard to find
The puzzle makes sense when the pieces fall in line
I'm teaching myself a new way to live my life

I know, easy can be hard to do
Life can be ugly or beautiful and new
It's up to me to do what I have to do
I know, heaven isn't hard to see
It looks like life with my family
In this house that we call home
I will never leave you alone

I will never leave you
I will never leave you alone
I will never leave you
I will never leave you alone