The Hope

[Intro]
(Grrah-grrah)
(Trap, you made that shit?)
(Grrah-grrah)
(Grrah, grrah-grrah)
(I keep tryna tell you i'm perfect)
(Grrah-grrah)
(I keep tryna tell you i'm perfect, a lot of you said i was perfect)
(Lot of you said i was perfect, i should have knew it wasn't worth it)
(Grrah, grrah, grrah-grrah)

[Chorus]
I can't try to act like i'm perfect
To be honest i be feelin' worthless
I don't know what's this place that i live on
I just be feelin' stuck in this earth shit
And i don't wanna hurt her i got to
Cause i don't hurt it first and i'm hurt quick
Yeah my mom really fucked up i'm sorry
I'm tryna show you i'm not really perfect

[Verse 1]
I've been fucked up on bro i've been buggin'
I got nobody talk to my lovin'
I don't even put love in my damn self
It's been years since i spoke to my cousins
And the ones that i talk to i doom 'em
If you chill with the opp niggas fuck it
You ain't hurtin me baby just move on
You goin' to hit my phone back when you want it

[Verse 2]
Everyday tryna duck the indictments
Take a perc' when i start feelin' lifeless
I know just for the moment it help
I lost all of my brothers i'm frightened
I'll be stuck i got nowhere to go
They call Jay the ticket well call me the ho
I walk to that block and i ain't have to show
I'm tired of rappin' of shit that they know
I'm tryna spit pain up in all of my music
But fans want to listen to how i'm on go
I can't do interviews anymore ima lose it
They keep bringin' up Nazzy and talkin bout Go
I be stuck in my thoughts i don't want to do music
Put this one to my chain out up it and blow
I lost all of my brothers don't know what i'm doin'
Three o'clock in the morning i'm speakin' to ghosts

[Verse 3]
Had my pain and my racks i feel fucked up
I just know anyday i could die
See OY everyday when im fucked up
You don't care what i'm sayin i'm [?]
I be tryin' to do shit just for every lil' body
Got a daughter like who gon' do it for mine
And nobody outside tryna go to that block
So don't worry 'bout me i'll do it i'm 5ive
Word to bro i be actin real crazy
Word to bro it be shit that i fear
Word to my dead i got PTSD i start flockin' on anyone start movin' weird
Oh you want a tough nigga, i ain't that for you
Baby i'm fucked up i'm mentally scared
But no runnin' up nigga, i ain't that for you
Word to my deads if you push up i flare
Goofy, we try to up and make movies
Goofy, if you do me wrong then you lose me
Goofy, i can't let you that bitch use me
Goofy, [?]
Goofy, i let all these people abuse me
Goofy, and i let these bitches confuse me
Goofy, talkin' on Nay now you [?]
Goofy, see all the pain i got thru' me, goofy

[Verse 4]
I ain't perfect i swear i'm just fucked up and shit
Like, i just want to run from this shit
Like, i can't put the gun down for shit
Like, i've been new when it come down to this
But, i ain't think i could look out for shit
But, you know everyone fuck up and shit
But, take it back i ain't want none of this shit
But, grrah
Do you see how i'm rappin' my feelings
Let me talk i just need you to listen
Do you really got something for healing
And be right when i look at that barrel
It was multiple shooters and killers
She asked me what i do for a living
If i tell you you leavin' i feel it

[Chorus]
I can't try to act like i'm perfect
To be honest i be feelin' worthless
I don't know what's this place that i live on
I just be feelin' stuck in this earth shit
And i don't wanna hurt her i got to
Cause i don't hurt it first and i'm hurt quick
Yeah my mom really fucked up i'm sorry
I'm tryna show you i'm not really perfect