The Glorious First Step

Now look where i'm at
Ask yourself, was you the one supporting?
Coz if you weren't, u ain't gon' be there
When I get to where I wanted
Deceiving mind of an evil kind
Its been an uneven ride, through this shit they deeming life
Its like a demon, tryna' feed at night
I got 2 sides, that don't seem alike
Maybe i'm bipolar
Maybe I'm a cross between 2pac & jody high roller
Maybe I live through the high n die sober
Maybe this lifes colder , maybe I'm just too old to cry
So I'll just smile, when my times over
N I deserve this spot, as far i'm concerned, bruh
You mad coz I'm the reason, your girls on her knees
Getting carpet burns, huh?
U ain't stopping words
From coming out of my mind, i'm on the grind
If this rap was my work, then I guess I'm doing some overtime
My purposes is served
I'm hoping these nerds buy my album
Critics criticize me, say I shouldn't be rapping
Coz i'm a product, that was never meant to happen
I used to listen to illmatic
Before rap was real ratchet
I'm back-flipping on tracks, like verbal acrobatics
Delivering raps through these broken needles
That'll keep 'em trapped like fiends & addicts
Mean i'm the baddest, that came out of your moms tv cabinet
Recognize the name
Never mistaken with counterfeits
This is the glorious first step
In a plan to take over you consciousness
A potent brain, thats numb to pain
Like nova cane
To the dudes i used to rap with
Look what the flow became

Lets break it down
I think I got something to prove
For all those people who believed that I wasn't so fucking cool
The dudes that robbed me when I was 14
Staring at that gun, I was numb
All I had in my mind, was fuck it boy, just run
Its cold world, n this is ice
I'm waiting for the day that I can get a girl
Without saying something nice
Money talks, bitches listen
Middle fingers up, i'm shouting 'fuck the system'
I'm here at the rap games insistence
Now just, relax
I promise this procedures gonna' be painless
As I proceed to paint pictures, with the stainless
Steel, desert eagle
To mess with people,that I came with
Show them I am as ungrateful as I am faithful
The contradiction is life like
I'm Mike Tyse on fight night
I'm tryna see this through, like bitches in white tights
(thats right)
Double the dose, so these rhymes lethal
My minds equal, to a crime scene
A homicide means, i'm quite evil
You're just 5 years deep, i'm primeval

I spent countless nights, tryna make this damn witty
Tryna' derive some meaning out of life's ambiguity
But its such a pity
That most of us will never make it
Its a pity, that paper can strip people naked
Dreams never stand a chance in front of obligations
Its a shame, that behind those bright eyes
Is a mind thats so vacant
N now you wonder why they told you, you were born to be great
When this monotony makes you feel like you born to be slaves
N everybody got advice
Wanna put in their 2 cents
For the ones that are green with envy
I was born with blue skin
Your chances are too slim
I need to cop a new whip, the one that got the lady with 2 wings
Recognize the name
Never mistaken with counterfeits
This is the glorious first step
In a plan to take over you consciousness
I said recognize the name
Never mistaken with counterfeits
This is the glorious first step
In a plan to take over you consciousness