The Finals

(Verse)
Who thought life would shift in two summers?
I ain't been in hometurf, in and out of the city
LAX to YYZ, having sittings with Sufis
My future's written in Farsi, it's too prolific
I seen people switch teams
Put up with teenage dreams
And they decide to cut ties
During the times I chose to make my own decisions
You put others first and not yourself
Now tell me is that sacrifice worth your mental health
I don't father stretch my hands to those that don't deserve it
I put aside my wholeness and my higher purpose
When it's done, it's not appreciated
Most of the time overly dedicated
And never worried if I'll even make it
That's one too many missed celebrations
Pardon me, my emotions are vacant
Honestly they lost a part of me
How we go from being phyamise to a dichotomy?
I guess it written in the stars, blame it on Astrology
I've been pushed so far my mood is no apologies
I been overall upgrading my life quality
I been always seen as being the anomaly
I been - I been tested so hard, my patience and my loyalty
I been reminded my veins only pump that royalty
And pressure makes diamonds
Even then they ain't affording me
NYC paid hotel fees, Sarabeths on Upper East
On my own ain't new to me
I still cherish memories
Time Square felt timeless, that's just you and me
Polaroid receipts, the love run deep, I gotta tell them
Tell them what the whole synopsis is
I only got good intentions is it hard to tell
How can I make it more oblivious?
I know i broke a couple promises
And the dramas been weighing down on my consciousness
Ice moved out East, while I'm still mobbing on the West
You can still give them your best, but it ain't enough
It's been a - "It is what is it" kind of year
And 2020 clear when I'm looking through the Cartier
Frames on the glasses, take this whole thing across the Atlas
When they sending shots bring the at list
More focused on real life than Instagraming
I really got expensive habits
I'm tryna really live lavish
The type to have the champagne splashing
Sunset views way out in Calabasas
Diamonds dancing on the coast like I'm up in Magics
Marble floors, Aventadors with my Miss Sultana
Give back a little cause it's only greatness I'm attracting
They said my old flow was preachy-preachy
I reap what I sow, blessed with everything, that's ten-fold
'The Tears That Fell' only shed truths, I know
I confess, God-mode like we in the finals