The Explanation

[Verse 1]
I've been speaking to you daily, checking that you're okay
Chop it up and discuss the songs that I think you should play
And then we both go off, do our own thing, sun another day
And though we have some disagreements, we will not go astray
And every time we speak, it's like nothing's changed
Everything's the same
We're miles apart but we will always be safe
This is a message to say
I should've told you about that letter
Probably took you by surprise when you saw that on my page
My aim was not to offend
You always will be my friend
We've got an unbreakable bond that will suffice to the end
I cried tears of joy when you told me you'd purchased your house
'Cause you can now settle down
I swear to God I'm so proud
I don't think you understand how damn inspiring you are
One thing I love is through thick and thin, you aimed for the stars
And it was you that showed me how to spit bars
You're so strong you couldn't even be defeated by a two-tonne car
There was things in that song I wish that I never said
But I was going through a phase, completely out of my head
I just wanted you in my life and I saw red
You were the lease of life I wanted when I wished to be dead
But I was selfish and I thought you didn't care
Expected you at every beck and call and I'd be pissed if you were not there
But you were going through your own stuff and I wasn't aware
You know, the stuff that I was going through, a sense of despair
Who am I to tell you what to do with your life?
And make a spectacle in public about you getting high
'Cause I was hooked on Class A's, how clueless am I?
I'm just so fucking grateful that you are alive
You're my best friend and that'll be the same 'til the coffin drops
I bet you think I've really lost the plot
But there's no way on Earth that me and you are separating
I just think I owed you an explanation

[Chorus]
Because you're my family
Because you're my blood
I'll always look out for the people I love
I want you to know that these words are all true
And the reason I love you is because you are you
Going out to my family, because you're my blood
I'll always look out for the people I love
I want you to know that these words are all true
And the reason I love you is because you are you
Going out to my family

[Verse 2]
I bet it was hard to hear that song and how much it all meant
Probably would've been easier if I gave you consent
And when I linked with you at Christmas, you took it like a gent
And told me that you're a call away if I needed to vent
You mentioned back when I overdosed, you were pretty upset
And that my family were worried I was swamped with regret
But I was peppered with debt and my weight was a mess
And everybody else's feelings never came to my head
But I'm recovering now, last week I lost seven pounds
And I've just got a new job, I'm tryna make you all proud
I've had four jobs this year and I've been sacked from them all
I wish I wasn't but I was feeling too embarrassed to call
And I became a recluse, I strayed away from the booth
Was drinking every night as a way of escaping the truth
It's pretty safe to assume that I felt safe in my room
Told friends I'd link late and cancel 'cause I was dazed and confused
I've been abusive and cold, feel like I'm losing my soul
I punched a hole in the wall, I just see red and explode
I've said some horrible things, I've struggled keeping it sweet
My girl was so scared once that she nearly called the police
And I can't handle my drink, I think it's time that I quit
Charlie tried to restrain me, I elbowed her in the ribs
That was a wake-up call, I can't be living like this
I won't take another sip and I won't miss it a bit
Am I being too honest? Tell me if I should stop it
Mental health is a problem, I educate on the topic
Waste away in a office to get some change in my pocket
Got these skeletons that need to make their way out my closet
If you're needing a friend, jump into my DM's
They will always be open, don't be embarrassed to send
I've got problems, you've got problems, you don't need to pretend
And together we can help it to end, this is my explanation

[Chorus]
Because you're my family
Because you're my blood
I'll always look out for the people I love
I want you to know that these words are all true
And the reason I love you is because you are you
Going out to my family, because you're my blood
I'll always look out for the people I love
I want you to know that these words are all true
And the reason I love you is because you are you
Going out to my family