The Deep Mystery of Ayahuasca

When I first drank Ayahuasca
I thought everybody should do it
Now I know better
After seeing people
Heal
Cry
Die
Rise
Suffer
Laugh
Feel absolutely nothing
Get to know themselves for what they really are
Go crazy
Go really crazy
Pack up the next morning and leave
Be confused
Grow in humility
Scream the silent screams
Relive the worst moments of their lives
And forgive
Break down
Gain strength
Now, I think you shouldn’t do it
Because I don’t know you
And even if I did
I wouldn’t have a clue what’s your experience going to be
like
(as much as I don’t know what’s mine going to be like)
And will you be able to bear it
Also, if you don’t feel it in your bones
As a calling
And my opinion is enough to talk you out of it
Then I’m glad to have stopped you
Because this really isn’t for you
Because this really isn’t for everybody
Because this has never been a joke
This has to be yours only conscious choice
Just know this:
Ayahuasca is the holiest of the holy communions
And if you willingly step into the ritual
Be prepared to lose everything except LOVE
What that means we’ll all see for ourselves
Ayahuasca is not about purging or visions
Even though those are some of the elements
In Her teaching and healing repository
However, the Whole is greater than the sum of its parts
Once you have been blessed with the opportunity
To make contact with Her presence
If you happen to receive the gift of a single vision
Meaningful for your life
Bow down in gratitude
And cherish that vision as a precious gift
Which needs focus, silence and time to be truly lived
While the unnecessary retelling of it to others drains it of
its power
Nurture what you’ve received in your heart
Because it’s only a recently planted seed
And the winds are strong outside
This is the Holy Communication
The quiet path of the Heart
The scientific mind will never understand it
Dissecting the experience biochemically
Trying to figure out the Mystical
The esoteric
The unexplainable
All those parts where the healing, the teaching
and the miraculous happen
The Universe within
We arrive in the jungle
With all our gadgets
Thinking we need something which we usually don’t
We claim we want change, but do we really?
Besides, can we handle it?
The knowledge we receive and do not apply in everyday
life becomes poison
That’s why Ayahuasca is only to be lived
Not advertised
Her domain is the Mystery
Which cannot be properly grasped with words
Only feelings
When asked why he had dedicated
Only a short paragraph in his book Tawantinsuyo 5.0
To Ayahuasca
A well-respected curandero Alonso del Rio said:
“The whole thing is too complex
To be addressed in a book
Only words that can describe Ayahuasca are
Too much
Too much love
Too much intensity
Too much clarity
Too much profoundness
Too much confusion
Too strict with some people
Too lenient with the others”
The more we drink Ayahuasca
The less we now
But ever more willingly we surrender
Like empty vessels waiting to be filled
Silent
In deep concentration and prayer
It’s a gift in one’s lifetime
A mission
A responsibility
A point of no return
We will never know
But once we feel it, we’re there
Once you drink the holy teacher plants
They are a part of you forever
Your whole being becomes intertwined with theirs
Their every atom and molecule becomes a part of you
Never lose this connection because it is based on trust
Imagine two hands,
Fingers intertwined
Holding each other firmly
The spirit whispers,
“I won’t let go if you won’t”