The Day Before I Die

[Verse 1]
The saddest thing in life is a waste of talent
A future gone dim and is then by us
Big city, bright lights, all the places I went
But would I be Larry Bird or a Len Bias
Only so many voices that I can quiet
Only so many traumas I can withstand
How long can I possibly make amends by it
My own family is here sinking in quicksand
I thought I beat the odds, I'm a product of my envi'
[?] narcotics to get high
I can wish upon a star and take a shot up at the sky
But no matter where I go I'm still rotting on the inside
My pride fucking with me like it's tougher to decide
If I should resuscitate or just suffocate and die
I wish I could find a serum, but that's the addict in me looking for a pill to cure 'em

[Refrain]
The Day Before I Die
The Day Before I Die

[Verse 2]
Every day I drink a gallon of the whiskey now
Plus I throw a few hundreds at the pushers
Last month I pissed away like maybe fifty-thou
And every night I leave my stomach in the bushes
What a fall from
Grace, now
Starting look like it's hopeless for me
When the walls come
Straight down
Well you already know the story
I beat the odds and doubled down and double down again
Kept saying "fuck it", grab my balls and guzzle down the gin
With the blood all on my skin, always trouble 'round the bin
I'm so sick and full of anger, that's the struggle that I'm in
This gun in this palm gets shot and it's history
My son and his mom are not going to miss me
I just need some vodka to mix me
There's not a priest on this Earth or a doctor to fix me

[Refrain]
The Day Before I Die
The Day Before I Die

[Verse 3]
When I awaken I'm shaking and caught uphill
Take a swig of swill and wash down some of these assorted pills
Trying to stop my liver quivering
I'm not sure it will
All this cocaine and this whiskey is moving in for the kill
Now I'm wincing and I'm inching towards this instinct to survive
But my pinching is to lie, keep on rinsing what's inside
Get things in sync with my high. Say goodbye to these cherry skies
Until I felt the sadness in Terry's eyes
Daddy tricked us again, Mommy didn't need
He didn't show up to see if she's always killing me
Now I've been through all the losses and the myths of this abyss
And I could live with all of it, but couldn't live with this
They were sharp pieces of glass from a broken spirit
That cut my heart wide open, God, I hope you hear it
'Cause I'm asking for a miracle this time
Give me freedom from this sickness in my mind

[Refrain]
The Day Before I Die
The Day Before I Die