The Darkest Day

Don’t recognize myself today
Talk in circles in the greyest grey
And all the thoughts live in a maze
Up here, where I belong

I trundle cross the harsh terrain
The darkest thoughts you’ll entertain
A force that I cannot sustain
I’m here, but something’s wrong

The darkest day
The longest night
I should evolve but still I fight
On the run
In a state of flight
I’m calming down

My intent is to be free
What keeps me warm are memories
Now they’re closing in on me
Things should have changed by now

I’ll be younger in 50 years
Trying to find what panic fears
Phobos and Deimos interfered
And change was everything

When you looked up
The stars all fell
It was hard for me to tell
It’s another day on Mars as well
This quiet is deafening

The darkest day
The longest night
I should evolve but still I fight
On the run
In a state of flight
I’m calming down

My intent is to be free
What keeps me warm are memories
Now they’re closing in on me
Things should have changed by now

I felt myself disintegrate
Figured it out but much too late
Took all that I loved that day
And trashed the rest of it

I happily detached the past
But equilibrium won’t last
In a capsule of poison gas
This solitude is desolate

The darkest day
The longest night
I should evolve but still I fight
On the run
In a state of flight
I’m calming down

My intent is to be free
What keeps me warm are memories
Now they’re closing in on me
Things should have changed by now